There is a pain in my heart
Deep rooted sadness within
A lump in my throat
Darkness has set in

Days go by
Everyday life goes on
Fear in my head
Has my battle been won?

My hair is back
Treatments are over
I thought after this I'd be better
Now I'm just wishing on a 4 leaf clover

Everyone thinks I'm all better
But I tell you that seems so far away
My body aches, my mind a mess
Fatigue seems as if it's here to stay

My innocense robbed
Body is scarred
Motherhood warped
I feel so marred

My life has changed
I'm not the same as I used to be
Everything is more precious

Love u

Nabin

Alone..........

Purity once had a name,
And beauty once had a face.
Life once had a meaning,
And once I was safe.
Once there was freedom,
And once I could laugh.
Happiness once was alive,
And once I had another half.
Once I shared her love,
Once I was by her side,
Once I felt I fitted,
So quickly that died.
Her grace so great,
Her beauty so vast,
All I ever wanted,
Was for it to last.
Fate maybe had another plan,
Or maybe she had another love,
But it all fell apart,
The hand too big for the glove.
Now it's all died away,
Happiness, joy, love; all memories.
Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world,
With no light to guide my way.

Love u
NAbin

A Dream Girl

You will come one day in a waver of love,
Tender as dew, impetuous as rain,
The tan of the sun will be on your skin,
The purr of the breeze in your murmuring speech,
You will pose with a hill-flower grace.

You will come, with your slim, expressive arms,
A poise of the head no sculptor has caught
And nuances spoken with shoulder and neck,
Your face in pass-and-repass of moods
As many as skies in delicate change
Of cloud and blue and flimmering sun.

Yet,
You may not come, O girl of a dream,
We may but pass as the world goes by
And take from a look of eyes into eyes,
A film of hope and a memoried day.

Love you

Nabin

My love lleft on saturday...........

My belt loosens slowly.
Reminders of you stay fresh
in murky ponds of suffocating tadpoles.
Wake me in the morning,
when the sun shines again.
It's frightening when all I know
falls apart.
And all I know is you.
Hunger squeezes me tighter.
My soul sags with exhaustion.
Ashtrays fill with sleepless nights.
Weeping intensifies my anxiety.
Can tomorrow come without you...
here today?
The cheap chandelier falls on my face.
The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.
Pain is unrecognizable.
All I knew was you.
You.
My love.

Love u
NAbin

Dry Your Eyes..........

In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin' straight into the ground
Lookin' to the left slightly, then lookin' back down
World feels like it's caved in - proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she's lookin' straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's lookin' down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin', my life is crashin' before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doin', things I can't imagine seein'
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin' my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

And I'm just standin' there, I can't say a word
'Cause everythin's just gone
I've got nothin'
Absolutely nothin'

Tryin' to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin' to change what she's sayin'
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I'm not gonna fuckin', just fuckin' leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you're gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Tellin' you things, but not tellin' straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now.

Love u

NAbin

My Funny Valentine's

My funny Valentine, sweet comic Valentine,
You make me smile with my heart.
Your looks are laughable, unphotographable.
Yet, you're my favorite work of art.
Is your figure less than Greek ?
Is your mouth a little weak ?
When you open it to speak, are you smart ?
But don't change a hair for me, not if you care for me.
Stay little Valentine, stay ! Each day is Valentine's day.
Is your figure less than Greek ? Is your mouth a little weak ?
When you open it to speak, are you smart ?
But please, don't change a hair for me, not if you care for me.
Stay little Valentine, stay ! Each day is Valentine's day.

Love you

Nabin

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

Love you
Nabin

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it dart away"
Nabin

"True love is a sacred flame
That burns eternally,
And none can dim its special glow
Or change its destiny.
True love speaks in tender tones
And hears with gentle ear,
True love gives with open heart
And true love conquers fear.
True love makes no harsh demands
It neither rules nor binds,
And true love holds with gentle hands
The hearts that it entwines."

Love you

NAbin

Hows my life.... back to my own home land ?
-Huh...... boring,

What are you doing now a days ?
-umm.... don't believe me, Just Sleep or
watch movies all the time.

Any problem in my family regarding me ?
-I don't think,its not a big deal
to stay at home.

Ummmm whats your plan for future ?
-Plan............ i don't have any.

But Have to think about it u know!
-Yea ! but its my life ha ha ha ha...
I don't have to think about it.

How you ganna spend your life without future plan....?
-huh....... Tell you one thing, Did you see your future.
No yea ! So why to worry about it.

I don't think........ u must be planning something to do in future?
-Oh Yea !............. i don't think about it at all.
See hows my luck........ !

I thought u wanna go back to S'pore ?
-Thats right..... but luck won't favor me.
Whatever i think and plan........ there's no necessary to be fulfilled.

So u gonna forget your friends.... for forever ?
- i didn't say that. My friends will be forever.
No matter what i'll try my best to keep in touch.
And u know i still keep in touch with them. ha ah ah ah
just time pass

Love you
Nabin

You and I are connected
in a way that goes beyond romance,
beyond friendship,
beyond what we've ever had before.
It has defied time, distance,
and changes in ourselves
and in our lives.
It has defied every explanation.
Except one:
Pure and simply, we're soul mates.

I can't explain, I just feel it.
It's there in the way my spirits lift
whenever we talk.
The sound of your voice brings me home,
in a way I can't explain.
It's in the delight I feel, when we laugh
at exactly the same things.
When I'm with you,
it's like a tiny piece of the universe
shifts into place.
A place it's supposed to be,
and all is right with the world.

These things and so many more,
have made me understand
that this is a once in a lifetime,
forever connection.
A connection that could only exist
between you and me.
And deep in my soul,
I know that our relationship
is a rare gift.
One that brings us
extraordinary happiness
all through our lives.

Love you
Nabin

How simple my life is now you are here,

How I cherish each breath,

How I crave the light and laughter you have brought me.

I have fallen in love without taking a step,

Fallen into the sweetest of dreams,

How I hope no one wakes me.

The simplest gesture wraps itself around my heart,

Where I will hold it forever.

Each time we say goodbye a part of me weeps,

Though I know it is not forever

To my aching soul it is an eternity.

I see my happiness shine in your eyes,

Every time you hold my hand my heart skips a beat.

How sweet life is to be yours;

How meaningless life is without you.

They know nothing of the loneliness before you

Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day,

How did you do it, I ask myself,

How did you banish the fear, the darkness?

You have made me see that nothing is that bad,

That I am strong and worthy of happiness,

You have saved me from myself.

Everyday I wake up and smile to myself

Knowing you are waiting for me,

Knowing you can't wait to see me.

How would I go on if you were not there to hold me up,

To bless me with your love and light?

How I am glad you have found me

My life is now complete...

I am home.

Love you

Nabin

Take my hand this way we'll go,

Said the man above,

I'll take you to a place of joy,

Where you will find true love,

If you let go, go on your own,

But mistakes you will make,

For many other ways there are,

Which you are sure to take,

When you feel that you are lost,

All you have to do is pray,

And I'll be there once again,

To help you on your way,

I did pray and just as said,

He shined his light from above,

That showed me the way down the golden path,

That led me to your love.


Love you

Nabin

Our love is that of a red rose

Whose splendor rises as the sun shows its face,

Whose petals expand further and richer

Whispering secrets of happiness and affection.

And even though with the fall of dusk

All contentment is swept away,

And the rose's petals unite as one

Reflecting any light that may endeavor to shine through,

The sun will always rise

And the rose's petals will eternally broaden

Until they fully blossom into a stunning creation.

Our love is that of a red rose

Possessing a few imperfections

That may cause evanescent wounds,

But the internal radiance

That will everlastingly bestow healing and comfort.

Love you
Nabin

Regret flows from the depths of my soul

With the strength of a flood

I have held these gates shut for too long

And though tormenting, they should not be stopped.

The thought of your anguish

Even as I write to you now

Stops my heart cold

As well it should

What I see in front of me

Is a painting of our love

Its most thoughtful brushstrokes

Mottled by hurried abstraction and inattention

A person who had not seen this masterpiece created

Might think it to be refuse and pass it by unknowingly

Letting be obscured the deep beauty of its many scenes

By layers of the tarnish of mistreatment

But as the painter

I see beyond the dark smears

To recall the hours that I attended to the details

And wonder how I could let it become so discolored

The painting that took me my life to create

Has lost its divinity in my careless treatment

And even if I were to refine it

I fear you would always see it as it is today

So today I paint a new masterpiece

One inspired by the muse of respect

A work that you can love through our old age

One that you will look to each day for inspiration

This one will take some time

As I want my brushstrokes to be carefully placed

I need to move steadily to ensure that this time,

My art represents my dream

This is my opus

Don't judge me on my past works

As I have never before had so much skill and inspiration

And never before have I wanted to please you as I do today

With you and my children as my muse

I will paint for you a lifetime

A portrait of devotion and friendship

A panorama of passion and admiration

All I ask is that you gaze upon it with an open heart

And you shall unquestionably love me again

Just three little words
don't seem like enough
for someone whose smile
still brightens my day,
whose touch can make me forget
the rest of the world.
They don't seem like enough
for someone who's always been there
to celebrate with me
when everything goes my way
and to hold my hand
when my whole world
seems to fall apart.
But even though "I Love You"
can't express the depth
of my feelings for you.
I hope you know what's in my heart.
Because loving you
means more to me
than anything in the world
and it always will.

Love you
Nabin

If there's one face I want to see,
so beautiful, so true,
one smile that makes a difference,
to everything I do.
If there's one touch I long to feel,
one voice I long to hear,
whenever I am happy,
or just needing someone near.
If there's one joy, one love,
from which I never want to part,
it's you, my very special love,
my world, my life, my heart


Love you
Nabin