First Love

For the first time I felt
this true love in my heart
it is buried so deep
and that I would always keep

All through the darkest night
you’re the brightest star in my sight
always been at my side
even in a grisly fright

You clothe me when I shiver
with your ever warm embrace
you’re the moon that lights my way
that makes me feel very gay

You wipe the tears on my cheeks
the tears of joy that I’ve seek
and it’s you, my love, my divine
That makes me shine so bright

You’re the sun in my sky
staring at me with all your might
guiding me with your ever shining light

For the first time in my life
I found my love and my life
without you I will cry
for you my love I will die!

Love you
Nabin

Dreams of U

We stood beside the daffodils
the evening sun shone o'er the bay;
we saw the river from the hills
the hours gently passed away.
I was your girl, you were my boy
in days when life was full of joy.

And even now, I reminisce
still see the sunset o'er the bay
and feel the magic of your kiss -
the years withering away!
I'm still your girl, you're my boy,
dreams of you are dreams of joy.

Love you
Nabin

A Rose With out U

With this rose, I not only give you merely a rose,
but I give you my heart and soul.
I send to you all the love I have to give,
and anything else that would give me the
chance to touch your heart.
 
With this rose, I reveal all my
thoughts and feelings about you
that I have withheld for so long.
I feel when I am with you... I am like a rose,
not because of it?s beauty,
but because I am able to bloom and grow with you.
 
To me you are like a rose's sunshine,
so full of energy and light,
that never does it fail to lift my spirits.
Just by the sound of your voice and that look in your eye.

I could never tear my eyes from you,
you are able to make my life worth living.
But, without you, just like a rose,
I would wither and die.
Not all at once, but little by little,
petal by petal.

Slowly at first, because you have made me
stronger and stronger each day you're with me.
But eventually, without you, I will loose
all those beautiful petals you have given me.

Love you
Nabin

A Red Rose

O my luve's like a red, red rose.
That's newly sprung in June;
O my luve's like a melodie
That's sweetly played in tune.

As fair art thou, my bonnie lass,
So deep in luve am I;
And I will love thee still, my Dear,
Till a'the seas gang dry.

Till a'the seas gang dry, my Dear,
And the rocks melt wi' the sun;
I will luve thee still, my Dear,
While the sands o'life shall run.

And fare thee weel my only Luve!
And fare thee weel a while!
And I will come again, my Luve,
Tho' it were ten thousand mile!

Love you

Nabin

Pics Of My B-Day

Incomplete Group Pics...... taken before i left my frens for KTM

Incomplete Group Pics with out her..........

Kamala Soltini................... laughing at me !

Prava Soltini's House..... with Her Sis Sonu and Menuka

Bhimu Soltini

Pramita

Prava & Urmila Soltini............

Pramita & Kanchhi Soltini

Prava, Urmila, Menuka & Kamala Soltini

Pramita and myself.............. Special thing that i;s wearing the shirt that i got on occasion of my B-Day And New Years

The Cake.....

Its my 26th B-Day that i've celebrate with my New frens .....

Urmila, Menuka & Kamala Soltini on my B-Day

A poem For Special Someone

You are my inspiration
having you in my life
revived my sleeping devotion
You are indeed a special someone

Loving you gives me hope
to free this misery that I coped
in those times I gave up
You came and I stood up

Never will I forget
how you always cheer me up
every time I’m sad
and for that I’m glad

Whenever I’m lonely
You were there for me
keeping my heart alive
with your every smile

I dedicate this poem to you
to show how much you meant
to me I love you
My special someone

Love you
Nabin

All Bexause of U

I awake each day with a smile
And greet it with a laugh;
The world is a treasure to me
Because of you.

Every time I think of something sad,
I replace the thought- with you!
My mind is instantly changed
And my heart is filled with gladness.

Every breath I take is meant for you,
I live this life surrounded in joy
And I bathe in the promise of your love,
My soul belongs to you.

Each time I see something beautiful
I want to take it and bring it to you;
My life has so much meaning now
All because of you.

Love you
Nabin

Absence

My love is like the sun that warms me when I am cold,
And like the cool water of the brook that refreshes me.
My love knows the secret pleasures of my soul,
And delights with me in fulfilling them.
Who is my love but the soul of my soul,
And the reason for every beat of my heart.
Who fills me with life in the joy of her presence,
And returns to me more than I have given.
Come to me, my love, I die without you.
Each day is eternity, waiting for your touch.
Remove the tears from my eyes and the ache in my heart,
Be closer than my breath, all my days, all my nights.

Love you
Nabin

Nowadays i don't have anything to write in my blog, just a boring life cycle...

So just wanna chilled out alone with my loneliness, where no one will distrub

me and my feelings as well. Wherever i went.............. people around me, always wanna play

with my feelings, it hurts alot.

One monent i thought of killing myself to get freedom from this fucking................

but next moment just give up my all hope and start to think about future. How it would be in future as well as my life. Whether i'll be able to live and see ............................. don't know just a hollow where i don't see any rey of lights.

Lets see.....................

Love u

12/05/09

P:Hey,dude whts up?Khaja khayo n how z ur days goin on?

N:Hi... just sleeping, not feeling well enough. What about u..!

P:Whats wrong ...?

N:nt just stomach, anyway i wanna talk about ur in law.... so

P:Then say....

N:ok... thats not easy to tell u like this, i need u to meet me or........

P:Sory i ll return cht voli.So u can say now n more over i m nt using my cell.

N:yea i know...! i need ur in law's all documents for processing, i'll try my best .with details ok. i can't process for us uk or other countries only arabian countries so just think about it and tell me. And i'm sorry that won't going to celebrate my b day... and sorry for everything that u've to face coz' of me........!

P:For me?I dnt kow abt it.Why u wnt celebrate it?Aywy its okay.....

N:U know why... so don't asked me ! And tell all the soltini's that as well, i won't be going to return chitwan any longer. I don't want u to get in trouble infront of ur family coz' of me. Anyway have a nice & safe journey.... keep in touch la

P:Thats fine

N:I hope the misunderstanding between us will go off from ur family. Anyways thank u for the memories and the moment that we shared & the time spent 2gether, I'll treasure for life...... thanks once more...!

06/05/09

We chat through mobile most of the time, it'll last 2 to 3 hours.......... continue talking on phone. Even my hand phone is not working properly but i'll try my best to keep in touch with her every time. It dosen't matter how............... ? but one night were talking on phone and know her in beeter ways and her feeling........... just felt heart break. Even though i've always respect her feelings but on that night i don't know what happen to me i can't control my feeling as well.............. She also cried, i really hate when someone closed to my heart start to cry.....! After that i just start to ignore her as she asked to do. Its really hard to do..... but i've try my best .............(;_;)

P:Nabin i wanna talk wid u.Why u r so rude?Plz call bck me,if u wnt then i nt gonna speak wid u forever.....

N:sorry la mero ma balance nai chhaina so i can't call u right now.

N:Hi... i think u wanna talk 2 me. But u're not interested at all about it. Anyway i'm going back to pkr 2maro morning......So as u wish whether wanna talk to me or not, its upto u...!U know that i never forced u for anything & first time i've trust u more than myself for everything so i've shared everything with u but u broke that trust with lies..... u know what ....? I never thought like this even in my dream as well that u'll lied to me...... it hurts my feeling ! That u never tried to understand..... But i thought i'll talk to u now..... may be its my luck that never with me, So now also that u've switch off ur hand phone.........! i won't be happy after i've made u cried...... it'll be something that'll hurt me & kill .....! I'mextremely sorry for everything!!!

P:Hey,i m sorry if i hurt u.I dnt intended to do so jst i want u to be far frm me.N wht abt u dat u hurt me alot more than i did.I kow u r still angry.

N:i don't think that have hurt u....i's crazy like hell. So how can be possible to hurt....

P:How mean u r?U missed all soltini except me in past 2 days.I was upset abt it.

N:oh yea.... ! thats only u see, but i've missed u even now. U wanna talk to me but u never come to me.... why? just timro mann nai chhaina ki ma sanga vetna ani kura garna.....!

P:I wnt to talk bt u neglect it.I was get in temper when i miscalled u in afternoon.N again menu di miscal at evenin many times to u then u didnt rply.

N:U never tried to understand my feeling. And i also have temper just like u..... so just rejected it in hope that u'll come to me for that...... But u're so mean....!

P:Hahaha!Dats quite funny.I came to u 1 st bt u r horrible.So i was out of controll.Aja ta jhan dai le pane last mood off garako thiyo.Felt so lonely

N:I got to know why u wanna go far away.... ? Thanks alot that i never know myself before....... oh ! ani lonely that u choose to live....

P:I dnt mean it.Ane wht fake info hav i told to u in our last talk.?I dnt think so.No, dai scold every time so get irritate.

N:U know what u tell me, so i don't wanna talk about it. I've clear myself and treat u like my gf but for ur happiness even can compromise to be a good fren..but

P:U believe or nt bt almost 90% info was correct. To trust in it,its upto u.I lies many things to others bt i dnt lied u.Its a true story of my life.

N:yea! if i don't believe u that won't shared my things to u. But u lied me 10% in whole truth, i's upset coz' of ur lies in our last talk.....!

P:Dat means u trust me now.It was i m nt money minded gal.I told it coz u hate such gal n i like u to do so.If i was such gal then i d say s to u bt...
N:Yea! i still believed u more than myself but the thins is not whether u're money minded or not. u told me something else, don't know why u used such a word 2 me

P:R u confuss dat i m play gal...To be frank its true.

N:Ok... lets say, if u're play gal than why u're still loved resam..why don't u look for another rich guy? or u don't wanna tell me, just fuck that shit ok. U think i'll convince

P:Stupid dnt use such a word any more.It dnt suits u.Then wht hav i told u,dat hurts u.

N:i's like that whether suits me or not, and u know what u told me. i don't wanna repeat again, so just leave that topic......

P:Nt use to me.I hate it.Plz tell na.I think i forgot it.

N:There's no use 2 repeat the past things again. Its useless to talk about past...... anyway i can't reply anymore coz' of balance. This one'll b my last Sms....

P:I kow u dnt trust me anymore.

N:Dats depend on situation and thing u gonna talk about. But another things dat i still trust more than myself..i can't reply anymore,this one'll mak my bal zero

P:Dats fine.U dnt say then i think u dnt trust me.Hey come to ktm sooner coz i want to hav noodles.I ll glad if u made noodles for me.

P:Sun z hapy n moon z upset. U kno why? Bcoz moon is misin u n sun z going 2b wid u in d whol day.Only miscal,why?

N:coz' sun also missed moon more than moon did...... u know how much i missed u...... i's leaving chitwan 2day without destination,

P:Come to ktm.Ane noodles na khulaune,i m dying for It bt u jst neglect it.

N:Herdai jau mann le kata puryauchha..... uncertain destination ma hideko chhu, namari bache kaal le sache vetaula pheri pani ani khaula noodles....

P:No u hav to come.If wnt then i doesnt mean anything for u....!

N:U're everything for me...... lets see the situation, may be i'll be at ktm, u never know

P:U nvr kow....Wht u mean it?

N:just an illusion... nt more,