My Gift To you

I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"


Love you
Nabin

Can We Still Be Friends

I was cold and hurting
lost out in the night
wandering and searching
for heaven's light

I saw the night sky clearing
when you spread your rainbow wings
But little did I know
what joy you would bring

From that moment on
a friendship did start
you kissed away my tears
and sheltered my heart

I bless the day God
sent him from above
But then I grew fearful
for I had fallen in love

I told you this feeling
and what did you say?
You said you liked our friendship
and that's how it would stay

I cried for a friendship I thought I lost
But then felt your warm, gentle hand
You then whispered in my ear
that by my side you'll forever stand

Love you
Nabin

A special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

Love you
NAbin

The dummy

In that forgotten part of town
Where wasted hopes and dreams abound,
A wrinkled man with life near end,
In hopes to have at least one friend,
Fashioned bits of wood and things
And made a dummy run by strings.

He sat alone for hours on end,
Conversing with his only friend
And found delight within the fact
That he controlled it's every act.
He told it how he never had
A chance, since all his luck was bad
Although he'd tried so to succeed -
The dummy nodded and agreed.

And how his journeys in romance
Had never given him a chance,
And wasn't it a crying shame
That he was always held to blame
When everyone knew, oh so well,
That life is but a living Hell,
Controlled by lust and power and greed?
The dummy nodded and agreed.

With patience that would rival saints,
That dummy sat through all complaints
And, with each little expert tug,
He'd droop his head or bow or shrug
And give some comfort to the man
Who held his lifelines in his hand
And helped to fill a lonely need
When he just nodded and agreed.

Senility increased with time
As did the old man's phantomime,
And feverish fingers pulled with glee
The dummy's dance of misery.
They never left each other's side
Until the day both stopped and died.
We found them lying, hand in hand,
The dummy - and his wooden friend.

Love you
Nabin

Nowadays i've spend my time doing nothing
just drink whole night and sleep next day with out having anything,
Just can't hold myself being like this.............
every time have to face some kind of problem
So get frustrated being unsuccessful in every time..................

Anyway i got lots of pics to upload in my blog............
but this fucking internet connection sucks and every time gives me problem
when i tried to upload pics or videos...
so just have to collect them in my pen drive..........


love you
Nabin

I feel sorry to my good friends back to S'pore
that i;s unable to contact you for a long time...............
specially to Nilam, i really missed you my friend
Right now i don't have enough time to call u...
not that i'm working or doing anything else
Only coz' of Electricity............. main problem of my country
that kills every single individuals...............................

So after a long gap i's here to write something
and update my blogs.....................
i got limited time .... don't know when the electricity will shut down
But we used to enjoy in darkness as well.....
through festivals and public holiday that we'll visit different place
right now we've just finished our festival
not like other festival... its totally different
where only one society people will gather and celebrate together
Actually i don't like to be there and hang around, means don't wanna be social
but its my bad luck.... i've be there,
and have to work like helll................ BBQ thats my work.
Whole day i've do BBQ..................
At the evening time.... hahaha ha ha my best friend
Drink and smoke like hell.... just stay alone................
no one will be there to disturb me........ i'll enjoy myself

Oh ! sorry NIlam that i broke your promise
that i won't get drunk, but now the situation make me like this.
i don't wanna be like this but ..............................
Sorry i hope you'll forgive me !

Love you Nabin

Whats your Style

When you dress to turn him on, what's your style?
Select the answer that best describes you.

1. Rosewater perfume Me Not Me	12. Large hoop earrings Me Not Me
2. Angora sweaters Me Not Me	13. Diamond studs Me Not Me
3. Lace-up sandals Me Not Me	14. Chanel #5 Me Not Me
4. Chamomile body lotion Me Not Me	15. Tank tops Me Not Me
5. Cashmere anything Me Not Me	16. Aviator sunglasses Me Not Me
6. L.L. Bean catalog Me Not Me	17. Lace-up jeans Me Not Me
7. Leather shorts Me Not Me	18. Skimpy tops Me Not Me
8. Designer slides Me Not Me	19. Dark black eyeliner Me Not Me
9. Low-slung blue jeans Me Not Me	20. Victoria's Secret catalog Me Not Me
10. Manolo Blahnik ankle-strap stilettos Me Not Me	21. Michael Kors perfume Me Not Me
11. Tiffany catalog Me Not Me	22. Cotton knits Me Not Me

Love you
Nabin

Its ok to Cry

You look around, day in day out
There is always pain, without a doubt
People fight and die everyday
Children, bloody and bruised, never play

Parents hooked on drugs and fights
Reminded all day about the hurtful nights
Words are thrown, fists are swung
Loved ones die when they’re way too young

Blood and tears, they’re too well known
The things we learn, the things we’re shown
Some give up and some move on
The joy was here but now is gone

How did it come to start? When will it finally end?
Physical cuts heal, but emotional ones never mend
So next time you see hurt in someone’s eye
Don’t forget to remind them that it’s okay to cry...

love you
Nabin

For You....http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif

I was in heaven
the first time we kissed
a feeling came over me
that I couldn’t resist.

Your hands on my waist
a new feeling of love in my heart you placed.
I know now that perfection exists
because that night with you was bliss.

The stars have never been so bright
I would have given it all for you that night
I didn’t want you to leave
I never thought I would believe...
You held me close to you
and I had no idea what
I was getting myself into.

You have no idea what you do to me!
It takes one glance into your face
for all my thoughts to erase.

One thing is surely clear
this feeling of love will persevere
for forever
just say you won’t leave... Never.

You can see it my eyes
this I know
and you know you had me
the very moment you said hello.

The way you smiled
turned into something wild
that tugged on my heartstrings and made my heart sing.

Its like I had been waiting so long
and now this feeling is so strong
and I know this is the kind of love
that you never forget
it will live on in my soul
memories like wildfire
warming my whole body
I never thought I would find you.

Love you
Nabin

My Painful Life

There are days, in my life was filled with emptiness
My heart leaked from pain and washed away with sorrows
When I was young, I did not get what I want in my life
At times I was alone and felt with madness
and my tears dropped and were wet into my pillow.
My life had no stairs or ladder to climb up
nor sailed smoothly to the destinations
My life was hopeless and helpless like a man without liver
Life, without life is nothing but shattered dreams
At night, moonlight brightens me across the window
but no one close enough to hug or care for my feelings
Nothing can be done and I have to live with my destiny of life
I watched others who had everything in their life
but it did not bring me jealousy other's than lost in my life
Even a smile on my face was far away from me
Happiness kept me away and darkness hugged me closely
So many broken promises have played deep in my life
and the outcome results was made me to! feel so terrible
They say " You can live the life you were born to live"
But what can I do when I was born there is no life in store for me
Today, what I have learnt is accept your life and
live with it without counting the hatches for nothing.

The Demon's in Me

The demon in me's not dead,
He's living, and well.
In the body as in a hold,
In the self as in a cell.
The world is but walls.
The exit's the axe.
("All the world's a stage,"
The actor prates.)
And that hobbling buffoon
Is no joker;
In the body as in glory,
In the body as in a toga.
May you live forever!
Cherish your life,
Only poets in bone
Are as in a lie.
No, my eloquent brothers,
We'll not have much fun,
In the body as with Father's
Dressing-gown on.
We deserve something better.
We wilt in the warm.
In the body as in a byre.
In the self as in a cauldron.
Marvels that perish
We don't collect.
In the body as in a marsh,
In the body as in a crypt.
In the body as in furthest
Exile. It blights.
In the body as in a secret,
In the body as in the vice
Of an iron mask.


Love you
Nabin

How Love Hurts

You told me that you loved me,
you told me that you always will. Then one
night as I sit home waiting for you to call
I heard that you didn't want me
and that you went out with your old girlfriend.
As I heard this the tears
just wouldn't stop falling.
Then you called me and I asked you about and you
started to yell at me.
As you yelled I could feel my heart break into.

To me it was so perfect,
to me it was going fine,
i never thought i'd lose you i thought you'd always be mine.
How come i never noticed,
how come i couldn't see,
that you were changing your mind,
the way you felt about me.
We could of worked it out,
wecould of talked it through,
but you left it so long,
there was only one thing you could do.
You tried to tell me nicely,
you asked me if i'd cry, but my heart just tore apart,
as i let out a sigh. We hugged for the last time,
and i didn't wanna let go,
but i finally pulled away as i told myself no!
i held i n my tears i began to walk away,
when people asked what happened,
i had nothing else to say, except "ï wanna be alone,
and i don't wanna talk," so i went around the corner,
and went for a little walk. i decided to sit down,
as i felt my eyes go red, i gazed at the floor,
n my hands i held my head. The tears poured down my face,
as i asked myself why,why did it happen,
why did he lie. I didn't wanna believe it,
yet i knew it was so true, that we were definatly over,
that you and i wre through,
I still can't believe, you expected me to guess,
when i had no idea, i was totally clueless!....



Love you
Nabin

My................ Crush

I love someone,
It's so true,
Is it the same for you?
I think of him all day long,
Even though I know it's wrong,
For he is with another,
How jealus I am of that other,
She's my best friend,
and I don't want our friendship to end
I don't want it to end over a boy,
Even though she can annoy,
I try to think he's not worth it,
but if I can't have him I'll have a fit,
Sometimes I want to cry,
Cause he can tell a good lie,
Making me want to blush and die,
But he can also lift me off my feet,
Just to knock me down with a simple sound,
A sound of a word,
Such a heartbreaking word,
Yes,
Yes I wil date you,
Yes I will love you,
Yes I will be yours,
But at the same time it's a no,
No he won't date me,
no he won't love me,
No he won't be mine,
But the worst part is he has said those yes words to me,
but they have never be.

Love you
Nabin

Why My Heart

You where my all the one I adored,
The one who I trusted the most in the world.
I gave you the pureist of me You asked me to trust you.
See my love was real i guess yours was fake
because i would have never lied to you or pushed you away.
You have no idea how much I have cried
asking the Lord why my heart,
why did you brake me in half this pain that consumes me
and won't let me think .
My heart had never felt such pain yet the one
who asked me to trust caused this enourmous hurt
and disappointment and yes shame.
Don't worry about saying sorry
or you wish me the best what goes around comes around
and that is what i have to say about that.
Adios Mi Amor My Bay this Love is the One you let slip away.
Don't think that I will cry forever
I love myself too much But yes know this you hurt me soooo Dam much.
One day the only one you gave away will be the one your wishing for.
Why my heart????

You knock on the door & seems so sincere.
Slowly convinving me to open the
door. Eventually I allowed you into take a sit.
You did not stay long,
disappearing as sudden as u've appear.
Anger emerge from this sudden emptiness.
You got me adapted to your
companionship only to pick up & leave.
I opened the door, allowing myself to be vulnerable, believing that you'll
protect me & shelter me from reality, but instead, the one that I entrusted
my heart & soul was the one that hurt me most ?

Love you
Nabin

After a long time............
try to write something about my daily life
till now... poems of my life,
So my daily life got boring for me
but for my friends........ and who knows me
think i's enjoying my life
i'm the luckiest person on this world
But i know..................... how i feel for myself
being like that.......



Anyway back to my country got lots of festival
and public holidays so that i've lots of time
So i've just finished celebrating a festival ..........
Lakeside street festival.....
includes Christmas, New year.....
its not that interesting as we celebrate...............
But i's enjoying myself alone just alone
Friends.... all runs after money


So just hang around with them.............
don't treat them as a good friend,
just hi and Hello!!
I missed my friends back to S'pore
where i got few friends whom i can trust
and rely on them..........
can share my thoughts and feelings as well


HA hahaha back to street festival,
went there to meet some friends
uh...... i's wrong to be there
they came to meet me ........
only coz' i got money so that they can enjoy
it really pissed me off..............
so i just let them go by their self
And i went another place alone
and get drunk like hell.............
i can't hold my body , i don't know
how i went back to my room...................
i can't remember anything..... just a darkness i can remember ...............
Spend whole time just alone............
friends Smoke and ....... wines, beers and whiskey to me.


Love you
Nabin

Missin' u

i've been living my alone
trying to get you out of my life
but after all this time
i can't help myself but miss you

you're once a dream that came true
an illusion that turned to reality
but suddenly, things turned differently
the way they used to be
untill such time i have no choice but to let you go

you're the reason for my sleepless nights
coz you keep stayin' on my mind
i can't help myself from crying
coz i'm missing you so much........

all the pain & sadness are bound inside my heart
all the memories are still preserve in my mind
i miss you so much
coz i can't hide the fact that i'm still inlove with you

my life will never be the same again
now that you're gone
i'll be trapped in this loneliness forever
unless a girl like you will bloom into my life again....

I thought this was a letter I would never have to write,
I hoped my tongue was something I could bite.
I've realized its just something I cannot do,
Here are my feelings, just a few.
First, I'm still so In Love with you, after all this time,
You told me the same, then left me, what a crime.
Time has passed, everyday you're on my mind,
Your love is with someone else now, what a bind.
I'm so jealous, he's the luckiest guy I know,
I can't do this friendship thing anymore, so off I go.
The pain of losing you is still fresh in my brain,
even after almost 2 years, everyday my heart feels the pain.
Will we ever be together again, i say as I sob and mope
as each day passes, I lose a little more hope.
I'll always LOVE you Amanda hold these words true
Don't hate me for this, this is what pain is making me do.
My heart is broken in so many a part,
Do I still have a place in your heart ?

Love you
Nabin

What is love

The word love has many different meanings in English, from something that gives a little pleasure ("I loved that meal") to something one would die for (ideals, family). It can describe an intense feeling of affection, an emotion or an emotional state. In ordinary use, it usually refers to interpersonal love (love between human beings). Here we find impersonal objects connected with the word "love."

1. What is a Love Apple?
a. Cherry
b. Radish
c. Small Red Apple
d. Tomato

2. What are Love Arrows?
a. Needle-like crystals embedded in quartz
b. Heart palpitations
c. Hat pins securing a flower
d. Pain caused by love

3. What is the City of Brotherly Love?
a. Paris
b. Los Angeles
c. Philadelphia
d. New York City

4. What is a Love Lock?
a. Heart Pendant
b. Long flowing curl
c. Chastity Belt
d. Engagement Ring

5. What is Puppy Love?
a. Affection for Dogs
b. Jealous Love
c. Loyal Friendship
d. Juvenile Love

6. In what game is a score also known as Love?
a. Tennis
b. Bridge
c. Chess
d. Soccer

7. What is a Loving Cup?
a. A cup shared by lovers
b. A small teacup
c. A two-handled cup given as a prize
d. A cup for toasting newlyweds

8. What is Love-in-a-mist?
a. Lovesickness
b. A plant with feathery leaves
c. Kissing in a parked car
d. Tears shed at a wedding

9. Which bird is a Lovebird?
a. Small parrot
b. White Dove
c. Hummingbird
d. Canary

10. What is a Love Feast?
a. The wedding meal
b. A Valentine's Day dinner
c. A religious meal shared as a sign of love and fellowship
d. The meal served at midnight on the honeymoon


Love you
NAbin

Happy New Year

The New Year has came already,
Bid good bye to the old,
Time to be strong and bold,
Time to forget and forgive,
Time to live and let live, Think about give and take,
Always try to make, never destroy.
Hope for a better year, search for the right path,
Never give up. Good luck best wishes,
Have a safe year with happiness and good health.

Wish All of My dearly friends......
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009.

Love you

Nabin

U wan' Love or Friendship

What do you want from me?
Do you want my love?
Or do you want my friendship?

You confuse me through what you say
You say you love me
But don't seem to care

Why don't we just be friends?
Nothing more
Nothing less

Perhaps you still have feelings for me
But why don't you show them?
Why must you hurt me this way?

I still love you
But I just want to know
Do you feel the same?

Love you
Nabin

U wan' Love or Friendship

What do you want from me?
Do you want my love?
Or do you want my friendship?

You confuse me through what you say
You say you love me
But don't seem to care

Why don't we just be friends?
Nothing more
Nothing less

Perhaps you still have feelings for me
But why don't you show them?
Why must you hurt me this way?

I still love you
But I just want to know
Do you feel the same?


Love you
Nabin