Puzzels.................
life beocme a puzzels
nither can face or just drop it
i don't know myself
i just lost on that puzzels
After long time..........
unexpected thing happened in my life
going to lose everything...... everything
that i never expected till now
So got lots of pain and heart ache
whenever i try to remember
it still hurt me .............. stilll
i told everyone
just like a lie.........
don't wanna let them know
what will be my next step ...
what am i going to do .....?
me..... myself can't decide what to do
so telling everyone different things
just wanna keep them in shadow
so that they won't feel bad
if anything happrn also
they won't be unhappy
Even i didn't tell you
what am i going to do ?
Yea ! coz' i don't know myself
when i'lll take my last step
yea ! i'll tell you and everyone
just truth ........... nothing else ....!

love you

Nabin

my life..............
its become more complecated day by day
i've to go through pain and sorrows life
everytime... every moment................
And whenever i get sad
one thing always remind me
my mom............ whom i've not seen
i don't know where she's
what she's doing all this time
i don't even have a clue ....
what happen t her ..........
i really wanna cry just a kid
cry as hard as i can
my feelings and my pain
not even my siblings also don't understand
so i always out of my own world
pain.... sorrow and thorn life
but its my life .....
where i won't be happy
happiness never cocme to my life
and won't ome as welll
now .............. i've got some problem
that neither i can express or can show
really got in puzzel......
i don't know what to do ..........
where to go and through that pain
and trouble ..............

Life ............... ha ha ha ha
endless journy of sad..... painfull life
sorrow...... happiness, can only see in dreams
in reality everyone sad

Love you
NAbin

Wow.............. it's totally unbelievable
yea ! i never imagine as well
But it hapen to me today.....
its totally about my dream.....
After working almost 16 hours shift feel tired
that i never experienced till now
So i dreamed about u.....
And kin and other friends as well...
its amaging to me to see
all of you in my dream...
ha ha ha just imagine what happen
oh ! at that time i feel like real
feel like i's with you
some thing ive just touch
i feel like you're with me ....
sitting just beside the beach
holding hand together
and lost in our world......
than suddenly wake up
and see around me .........
oh ! its only a dream
only a good dream to be remember....
just wanna cry like a small boy
cry till no more tear in ym eye
but............ realize...
my house owner is waiting for me ....
wanna talk to me .........
Boring ...........


love you

Nabin

After long time .............
i got a good sleep with out
Any nightmares that i used to see
ha ha ha ............. i don't know
but at least i get a good sleep today
i slept whole day with out moving
ha ha ha i don't believe myself

And i's very angry with you
i never imagine that in my dream as well
but have to see it............
from that day to till now
i's really angry .............
why you want to be like that
you know what you told me before
and see yourself what you're doing now
is there any difference..............
No you 're going to take wrong path
Yea ! i don't know your past ..........
but as soon as i know your present
i don't like what you're doing .....
its not the way to heel your pain
i thought the same way
but i've realize it won't be the right way
to heel your pain and depression
i can feel that pain .....................
But tell you one thing ........
" Don't through the stone,
into the river.......
someone will drink it.
live your life with happiness
by seeing you someone is trying to live"

yea ! so i wanna see the same person
with whom i love.....
same .......... not like this
eventhough you don't like it
but as a friend i want you back
same Ann.......

love you
Nain

Why ...?
Why i'm still wondering..............
that i've done something worng
that will take me to the grave
every night same nightmarea...
Why .......!
why i can't forget that nightmares
for a good moment.......
so that i can sleep well
can get a full rest ......for my tired body
every night seems to me like hell
i wish.............. nights never come again
So that i don't have to see the nightmares
almost not even a second
with out that memory....
i tried alot to forget that dreams
but it always appear ...............
always .................
i don't know why ....?
and when it'll end
but sure it'll kill me one day .....!
*************************************************************************************************************Oh ! i'm so sorry for that moment
that i've treated badly
not even speak with you properly ..........
its been already 3 weeks
hum............ something wrong wo=ith me
yea ! why ............
i don't wanna treate you like that anymore
its too much already.......
i can't hold it anymore
i'm not sure...........
whether i'll be here..........
means same place working
but one thing is true...........
i'm not goingto leave just like this
after struggle of 5 years
i'm not going to give my hope
not like that...........
i'll be here may be sommewhere
in different place.....
trying to be happy with my lonely life
lonely life once again...........

Love you

Nabin

I wish...............

i's able to keep my loving things with me

forever and ever....closed to my heart

till me last breath

But only in dream .....

so now also can't control it

it's beyond my control

i tried to stop alot and try to something about it

but all my effort... useless

I'm still trying to be here

eventhough i don't have anything

Still trying to get it back

not going to do anything stupid

i believe one day it'll be mine

yea ! with that hope i still trying to live

and trying my best to stay with in.........

remaining in my luck and Karma

Faith ... everything that i believe

oh ! yea ................ not going to pray anymore

i've seen what happen with me

when i pray ..............

so this time ..... my luck and faith.................

i wish this one will be just like movie

or some kind of story

written inside the book .......

that i's reading and feel it like ....

its real ........... ...

there you are and here ....

but it seems there's somekind of border

which seperate us ............

as if like movie......

ha ha ha ha ............

but thats not a movie

thats reality... a total reality

that neither you or me want to break

that border ..........

Anyway who want to leave

just like that .............

(;-;)

love you

Nabin

Oh ! it's really hard to berlieve myself...

not even once but always

the same thing happened to me

Every one want to away from me ..

just wanna leave me alone ......!

Yea! it's not a new things for me

but still i wanna back that things

i wanna take that moment.....

i don't wanna missed anyone

I can understand .................

the situation and time ....

not with me and never

in my favour .............. so trying my luck

everytime .............. everyday

don't know how long it can last

I think there should be one stop

where i can see ..........

and get back the things that i wanna get

i hope .................

Oh! hope ........... i always hope

but it's just like a dream

never come true..............

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i've lost so many things

in short period of time ...

yea ! there must be something

that stop me to get it .........

may be its total faith of mine

or may coz of misunderstanding

i would like to say ......... mis-understanding

Yea ! ................................

So i still hope to get back .....

still hope .........

Love you

Nabin

i gonna missed everyone........

everyone who love me as a friend

Yea ! i'll missed them alot

Curently..............missed Kim

Yea ! its been not so long

but being with her and talk

i feel relaxed ..............

But she's no more working already ......

And i missed you as well

i really want to be close with you

as close as i can ..............

just as a good friend

but ................ i feel like avoiding

Now all of my closed things

going away day by day .....

a bit by bit .....

nothing i can do ......

eventhough i tried to do also not possible

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I missed you alot ....

just can't...

may be i'm stupid to wait for you

all the time .....

no ..... ! i just want to be normal as i's before

i don't why !...... still can't ...why ?

love you

Nabin