National Festival

Every one, around me ..... happy, But i'm not as happy as other. I's sad, lost in my own world of confusion, regret, and difficulties that i've to faced every time, wherever i go........... my own problem not going to leave me. So that i can live my life happily. Yea! right now also got national festival just like others celebrate Christmas or any other festival. Its called Dashain...... our narional festival that everyone will celebrate..............

But for me...... its not a happy time either, coz' i don't wanna celebrate it. I never told anyone.... whats my real life and what's the problem..... ! Never only certain closed frens know some of my fact that i've faced and still facing .............. Yea ! i know, you don't believe me coz' whenever you see my .......... i's happy and laugh everytime. So non of my frens believed that i got some serious problem in my life.

Since that incident... i never tried to be closed in my social and with my relatives.... ha ha ha not even my family. So... now also how can i celebrate it man............. so going to be alone. Some where.... i won't find anyone who will tell me or ask me... 1 why ?

i don't wanna see any one near till end of this festival...... ha ha ha ha just as crazy as a mad dog......... who wanna bit some one and lost in imagination .....

love you
Nabin

um..... ..... its already 2 months i left S'pore and haven't done anything

just wait and wait for the process to return back to same place where i missed

my frens and that moment i've spend. Humm.......... its getting hard to stay here.

All of my frens left for overseas..... so just alone.

oh ! yea got a new frens........... but i really don't know, we just talk on phone and message

but i never met her and see her as well but from the frist day i feel like we met already and know her............... yea ! but i can't remember anything. In first place i feel shy to talk with gals till now and never talk to any gals overhere. But why ? i feel like know her.....

I don't know why ! but it may be an illusion or puzzel that neither can solve nor can remember my past. ha ha ha it's so funny that i don't know her real name as well..... just my fren pass her contact no....

only i know her as Kusum..... for online chat ID, nita tamu as yahoo user.......... i really don't know what to do...? Anyway i hope to meet her one day so that i can solve that puzzel. So till that time have to wai tand see just like my process. It's taking too long time ... still have to wait another 3 weeks.

oh god i can't wait anymore.......... i'm sick of it and wanna leave as soon as possible

anywhere that doesn't matter, just don't wanna stay here jobless.

love you

NAbin

Liife will be that much of boring... i never expect and missed all of my new friends, another thing that i really hate. Back to my home.... there is nothing to do , no job,..... nothing at all, Just stay at hoe and watch Movies or sleep whole day and night as well.
I don't know how long i've stay like this, i really wanna be abroad and do some jobs to keep myself busy. But the oppertunity .......... Yea ! i'm waiting for that oppertunity. My first proiroty will be of course S'pore. So still waiting for the outcome of my process......
lets hope i can get my result as soon as possible. Oh ! yea i missed my one of my friends B-Day...... yea ! Ann.................. i hope to be there on her B-day time but unfotunately i can't make it.
So i send her a Text message through my hand phone... don't know whether received or not. So i trind to make a phone contact as well... yea ! its too late for her.... 12 midnight ha ha ha ha ........ only i used to wake up. All my calles went to voice mail box. At last i don't have any other option, just to give up.................
Anyway here it goes.... Wish u a many many returns of the day... hope for the better year, search for the right path, Never giveup.Good luck, Best wishes... have a safe year with happiness and good health............ enjoy alots have fun ha ha ha

Loveyou

Nabin

Dear Ann.............. i hope you read my current blog over here.

I don't know how to start, it's all about my past that i spend with you.

I hope you still remember the first time you came to work at Guylian, i thought that you and fit,

both of you will be as same as other staff over there. And i got headache because of them as well.

As a supervisor or as a team leader i wanna be as good as others but ........

no one try to understand me. I have to react like a bosy and wanna scold everyone.

So i still remember that time when i told about my habbit and what i like and don't.

That will be my first time i've ever feel so bad to say some dirty word, I know thats not a big deal for you

but i feel bad myself.

After that moment i got some kind of feeling and can't stop thinking about you. Actually i's start to like you and love you unknownly. And some more when we took the transport together and i put my arms ......

i take you as graunted...... i don't wanna lose you anymore. Yea! thats my feelings for you at that time.

Slowly i start to talk with my friends.... Ubin, He knows everything. He's the only one person with whom i start to share my feelings for you. In my free time just wanna see you and wanna be with you for ever.

When you told me that you're going to work anymore, i feel like going to lose myself, going to loose my soul from my body. I 's sad and no mood to work as well. And you came to see me on midnight..... i's working with your sis and loena. You came there drunk and can't control yourself. I hope you don;t know one thing..... i got to know that you like me as well.... so i purposed you on that day .... ha ha ha you can't remember. But fit knows everything so later on she ask me how i feel for you.

I told her everything..... and next thing you can remember. I don't have to tell you after that how we passed our time togehter at midnight. Yea ! i can accept one thing..... i'm not that much of romantic guy. I've been through so many difficulties in my young life so i's totally a different person. I hope you know me somehow... ha ha haha

Now i really missed your Sis company. her friendly hug every moment hunt me down. I can't forget that moment that i've spent with you and other .... kin, fit, leona, Kim...... those moments are treasure for me. .....

a treasure that neither can erase or forget.... ha ha ha h ha

love you and missed you

lots of love

Nabin

moments.... of treasure

Its been long time already... that i left Singapore coz' of my visa problem. And now back to my country

ha ha ha nothing to do just sleep whole day and watch movies. No frens and nothing at all just chat with family and get bored. I really missed those moments that i've spend in Singapore with my closed frens...... yea! those frens with whom iused to work everday and wanna be with them all the time. But situation and time won't wait anyone ..... so mine as well. I don't know where, when how and what am i going to do in future ................ just confused and totally lost my confident ................

I hon't think that my frens..... who i cared now will remember me after a while, may ber after a few years back..... hahaha everyone will forget me and don't remember at all. But for me i'll take that moments as a gift, no matter what happen or where ever i'll be in future, those moments always with me coz' they're treasure to me.

I still missed those moments when i spend my whole time without sleeping and trying to help, ummmmmm help ....... yea ! i wanna passed my time with them. I didn't care about my fuiture, i take those moments as graunted. Idon't have to think about my future being with you. But situation change ..... with that everything chnaged and have to apart in different world.

Just like spending whole night without sleep, and share all kind of things and hang around Airport, get drinks from another outlet , buy Sushi and boost Juice....... ha ha ha get scolded and fight with other staff. Yea ! it's awesome and funny things that i've done. I feel like just a dream that have seen just now in my own world but later on realize... its true. Thats the moments that i've spend with u Not a dream.

And some thing that i never share in my life with anyone......... i don't know whether anyone believe me or not but truth is................ till that time i never beeing so closed with anyone , cared all the time and wanna be with u. And no one try to hug me but that love i get. And i only have handful of friends whom i can count on my hand. like Ann, Fit, Nilam, Kin, Kim, Leona, Hui Wen, Fanny, Ko hoi, Hansen, Samuel, Darren, Arnold, Sam Yee, Jason...... no ore friends.

Back to home i don't have any friends so boringlife. Everyone left for further study in different country so i don't have a contact with them either. So just remember the time that i've spend in singapore with my frens. And watch movies..... just to pass my time and killed doredom. I wish can get those moments for forever ....... ha ha ha ha unfulfilled loved as well...................

love you all

Nabin

memories of singapore.............

Here she goes like this….. Times flies and it’s now time for you to return back to Nepal. Although I resigned not long after you came, I’m glad we are still in contact even after years. Really appreciate all the help you had given me since your first day of work. Of course I won’t forget what you did in the Chalet with me, Fanny and Samuel. It’s time to say good bye to you and I really hope you will come back to Singapore not to work, but as a tourist! Miss you a lot……!


Yea !parting’s not a happy time but neither is it sad, But it’s hard to believe that one day we’ll be in different world with our own dreams of days to come. Even though you’ve resigned early after I came at Billy Bombers. It’s really hard to adjust in new environment and place but I’m glad to get you as a friend since my first day. You know at that time how you help me to adjust there and all those flirting and teasing. Imissed those moments…. They’re treasured for me and I won’t forget.

Wow! and some more I won’t forget Chalet incident, You know how you, fanny and Samuel BBQ the chicken wings for me……. All burned, ha ha ha ha I still have those picture of burned chicken wings. Ha ha ha ha it’s so funny to remember those moments that we share together in short period of time. And while working trying to step on shoes of every single staff…. I’m glad to get you as a good friend and really appreciate your help that you’ve done after leaving the Billy Bombers. Unwillingly I’ve spend 1.8 months over there. Thank you a lot my friends Hui Wen, Samuel, fanny, Arnold, Hansen, Darren, James, Suyun, and of course Sam yee. I really appreciate your help that you’ve done when I need. Even though I’m not happy with the company but I really enjoy working with you.

After leaving Billy bombers....... got another company where i've got lots of frens, whom i really cared and love to share everything and chit chat. I work there only 6 months but was able to make lots of frens. Ann, fitri, city, Kin, Kim, Leona, and of course Nilam, were my best frens that i've ever made. I missed them alot... Ann who i loved and wanna get her for forever...... done stupid things and get drunk, leona (God Sis), Kin ..... always hug me. I missed you and your hug, Fitri... a good friends as well as .............. kim ha ha ah drunken kim, lastly Nilam......... i won't forget that moment that we share together as a frens.

Yea! Those moments….. Feel like it’s just happen, fresh and unforgettable. It’s time for me to leave Singapore…. But I won’t say good bye to all of you… just wanna say see you soon. Coz’ I wanna see all of you again and again

Missed you a lot my frens…
Love you

Nabin