24/04/09

N:Hi .... khana khanu vayo ta, ani hows ur health conditions 2day?

P:Fine n aja ta khana mann lageyena.N wht abt u?

N:What u haven't taken ur dinner till now, plz listen to my words and have ur meals ok. i don't like it....

P:Khana mann nai chaina ke.So dnt mind la.

N:Sorry, mann na vaya pani thorai vaya pani khanu parchha timile. Not for me but for whom u luv.....

P:Khana nai chaina k.It got finished now so i hav to cook again.So i ll hav it 2morow.Hey raati call garnu la i think i m bg so dnt mind.

N:Timi bg hune aaja..... than what should i do.......!

P:Call me after an hour.I ll be free.

N:Sure, i'll call u exactly at 10 ok..... So are u watching tv or going to sleep already....

P:Nth.I ll tell u later.Bye.Hey Make a call to me at 11 pm.

N:Sure darling, as u wish.... called u sharp 11 ok.

P:Plz dnt use such a word i jst scare of it.

N:No need to scared with my words........ if u don't like than sorry, i won't use it again...

P:Dats fine.I ll wait 4 ur call.

P:Hey dnt lie me,wht happen to u?R u all rite?

N:yea i'm doing great..... there's nothing wrong with me....

P:Why u r out of house so late yesterday?Did u angry coz i cnt speak to u.I m really worried abt it.

N:Not at all.... just feel boring only.....

P:Dnt lie me.U hav got trouble.

N:Not at all..... what trouble will bother me anyway.

P:I can feel u.I m confident to say dat something is making u sad.Do u today also i cnt hav a meal coz of u.Its u who dnt worry abt me.

N:i told u already that i'm fine. There's nothing wrong wih me.

P:Hey i ll call u 2morrow.Dnt mind la.I gonna Switch off my cell.C u soon n gudnite n dnt speak while sleeping.

I Still can't set my mind... what to do in future... uncertain,

I's still going to continue the case of my mother even though non of my family want to do it.

I don't know how long gonna take ............... see how the situation. For this case i've sacrifice and compromise lots of things in my lo\fe so don't know how long i'll be able to do it.

Actually all of my clsed frens and relative want me to stop doing such things and asked me to strat new life, But how ..... ! thats not a easy things to me .................... Ummmmmmmmmm thats true that i wan't be able to follow this case for a live long. So confused what to do..............?

Lets see ................................

Love u

22/04/09

N:Sweetheart, kina ho ta ni phone switch off garera basnu vayako...... kina ho ta ni! lagchha samjhana nai aaudaina ki kya ho...... ma ta kasto missed gari raheko chhu.
P:Hi???

N:Hi.... thank god! i thought u're not going to message me at all. Anyway what's goin' on...!

P:Mann ta thiyena tara khana khanu vayo ki vayena vanera chinta lagyo so mgs gareko.N khana khanu vayo?

N:Oh ! kasto nisthuri hunu hudo rahechha..... anyway timro message kurdai basi raheko thiya. Any khana ta mann nalagi karai kar le khanu paryo ni....!

P:Maile mgs gar6 jasto lageko thiyo?

N:La mero mann le vandai thiyo ki aaja jasari vaya pani message aaucha vani.... so i just follow my heart & get as well....!

P:So funny.Timi sanga kaam thiyo....Can i also help u in investigating ur mom?It ll be my pleasure to get engage in it.

N:Sure why not, it'll be my pleasure to get u in my side.... u don't know the limit of my happiness, So

P:Today i got to kow abt Ekta Nepal so i hope they can help u in searching that women n i m gonna talk wid them tomorrow.so lets hope we can....

N:First i wanna say sorry, my words may hurt ur feeling, but i've been through all the possible places like maiti nepal & other places. They just useless.... don't do anything to help others.....But u can try.....! i'll be happy for ur help!

P:Yeah i kow u hav got many powers which i dnt contain 1 of them bt i still got a hope.Who kows wht can happen at wht time?May god is wid us.

N:Yea... may ur god help us as well. i'm glad to know that u wanna help me when i need.... am so proud to call u as my gal now. U know mero khusi ko sima nai chhaina ni ta...!

P:I m also glad dat u appreciate me.Aywy lets try my bst bt it may take time coz of strike n if i cnt do then it gonna be last day of mine.

N:its gonna be ur last day.... Huh i didn't get it! what u mean...?

P:Nth.U dnt understand me.Its a logical word so samay le bhujaucha.

N:Plz' tell me na.... coz' of this i can't sleep for the whole night. u wanna see me to wake up whole night just to get what's the meaning....!

P:If i cnt do it then i ll assume myself as a helpless gal.A gal who cnt do anything for his fren when he needs u alot.It ll gonna be black day for me.

N:Hey .... ! don't be like that, u wanna help me.... tyo nai sabai kura ho ani safal ra aasafal vanne ta life ma vai nai rahanchha. So don't think like that agai ok. If i got to know that u're sad coz' of this i'm gonna slap u...!
P:Can u slap me?Dats amazing then i m gonna cry whole day.Meh dherai gali sahana sak6u bt a slap never.

N:If u talk like this, i'll close my eyes & slap u........ but later i'll be the one who's, going to say sorry and consol u whole day until u won't stop crying.

P:If i get angry wid a person then its hard to be forgive.Tara ris chahi kada cha mero bt nt like urs.When i get angry i stop talking to everyone.

N:So u're not going to talk with me, even i want apology for it. Nevermind i'll be with u even thought u don't talk to me....!

P:Hahaha...Jst joking.Mero riss ta ekchin ma finished bt u hav to keep on talking to throw my anger.Bt ur anger i jst solute it.

N:Mine is not that bad at all. i'll control beyond my limit..... if its over that show it at once and finished.... to me just leave me alone for a while!

P:We r so opposite then hami sangai basna sakdaina ne.I feel too bad to hear it.Hehehe....Lala meh sut6u,teti matra vanna smS GAREKO HO.

N:La aago ra pani vaya pachi sangai basna sakin6 ni ta.... so lagcha timro nai chahana chhaina jasto mero life aaune, dhukha ko satha satha khusi chu timro concerned in my work.....

P:Is ur b-day at 20th may.Mero hisab milyo ta?Tapai ta khub gafadi rahe6 ne.

N:Ha ha ha no... thats not my b day, just 1 day u lost to count. Ani maile ta real kura garna khojeko ho.... timilai guff lagyo vane i'm sorry la

P:Oh s i missed one day.No i dnt mean it.Tapai ta mero sms prava ra minu di lai dekhayera,wht they say a rply u jst send it to me.

N:Yea... i shows them some of ur message, they're concerned about our chatting mostly and be true with u, they want us to be together.... So wanna help as well...!

P:Really by laughing at my words n thinking.

N:No no they're totally serious about it. And they never laughed at ur message..... just look at my expression and laughed at me...!

P:Dnt afraid.I kow it.I m jst scaring u.N gudnite n hav a bad drm.

N:ummmm.... u scared me alot. now i can breath otherwise will faint. So what ur choice....be with me or .......!

P:Jst leave it now i ll sleep.

N:So u won't tell me.... anyway have a sweet dream & sleep tightly la,

Its long time.... that i's not able to update my blog at all. I's been so far from my home where its rare to use internet facility at all............. I've been there almost 2 months, Just to relaxed myself.

I've enjoyed alot, Actually i's been there to continue my mother case that's still going on since 2 years. I really don't have any hope that will get on that case.

Till now i've stayed in my Aunt house and try my best to continue that case. Where i got chances to meet new friends and love. I never thought it'll possible for me, But don't know whether its my luck or someting else.......... But i really feel glad to meet them specially to her with whom i love her unknowingly.

21/04/09

N:Hi....are u free now, i need to talk with u right ow,

P:Why u leaved today?I was thinking...

N:i wanna talk to u this morning, i hope u know the habit of my vauju......... i thought of going 2maro with u but vauju ko jiddi le garda hidnu nai paryo...Sorry la

P:Kahi chaina tara voli gayeko vaye ma pane janthyo hola sadai ko laggi.Jst leave it.Hav nice journey,wht can say more than tis.

N:Janu hun6 vane kehi chhaina ma pharkera aaula ni lina muglin ko bazar ma, k 6
b4...... ki joking matra ho timro as usual.

P:Lala ramro sanga janu n pugyo vane jst make one call to me.N sake samma churot sa raksi na khanu hai.

N:la la ma puge pachi i'll call u la, ani ktm janu vayo vanu message garnu, keep in touch la...

N:k garnu sweet heart, mann le namanda namanda vauju ko karle janu paryo....ahile ma taxi ma jadai chhu. ani gonna missed u like hell, i don't know how i'm gonna live without u......

P:Dnt lie me.Taxi ma po janu vayeko.Lala ramrori janu n i also gonna miss u alot.

N:i never lied to u.... everything is true from bottom of my hearts... i gonna missed u alot. whether u luv me or not but u're my true love that i've done.....

N:Sorry la sweetheart, kura garda gardai disconnect vayo.... real kura balance nai finished vayo. Ani khaja khanu vayo ta!

N:So sweetheart, have u taken ur dinner already. What are u doing.....!

20/04/09

N:Hajur vannu hos, khana khanu vayo...... !ani k gardai hunu hun6

P:Nth to say,jst missing u n khana ta khayo.N aja noodles khanu parla?Ll u make
for me tis afternoon....

N:why not......? i'll make it for u, but where should i make it for.......!

P:Anywhere...I ll come to hav it.

N:so lets see, it may be at prava soltini's house....... i'm going to be there soon

P:Dats fine.I ll be there by 3 pm.Aja ta khub mood off thiyo ta.Sory hai i cnt pick up ur call.

N:Never mind.... k garnu ta ni mood ta off hune nai vayo ni, ani kina hidnu vayako ta no risayara..!

P:I was feeling sad too coz by lukin ur sad face so i cnt tolerate it.K vayo aja,can u share it to me?

N:Just nothing, i's not feeling well enough..... i don't know what happens to me. i thought u wanna tell me something but u just left....

P:eah,i wanna bt u didnt wake up.Then wht to say to u n if u r sick then u can hav it.There is something to make u sad.Plz tell to me.

N:Sorry for that, anyway u can tell me now as well....... ani mero sick ta time lagcha but i'll try to manage otherwise i'm gonna use it again.....

P:ba ta vandina. aywy i dnt think 2day ur nt sad coz of sickness.I could feel there is other reason since hijo.i kow u dnt want to share wid me.

N:U know most of the things about me already. So i don't have to hide anything from u as well. u know why i feel sad as well, but don't know why u didn't understand. Anyway malai vannu hudaina vane kehi pani chhaina...

P:Yeah,i can read ur face very coz we r sharing many things.U dnt think u lost ur smile simply u r sick.I kow u very well.

N:Than u know why am i sad at that time. Ani k vanna khojnu vayako thiyo ni ta.... ki mind change gari saknu vayo ta ni...!

P:Yeah its coz me.I kow i can bring sadness so in ur lifes too.I cnt be lucky charm in ur life too.Hijo bata sad hunu hun6 tapai.

N:yea i's sad for a while. not coz' of u, there's got another problem as well that i've talked with u before. So u might be a lucky charm that i wanna get into my life.... and waiting for till now.!

P:Abt ur mom?I felt its coz of me,i said u to go pkr. or abt a cigarette?If i was it then i dnt hav to see ur face in sad rather then happy...

N:nothing like that, i don't mind whatever u tell or asked me to do. i got my own family problem that i've talk with u already. For u that nothing i'll tolerate,

P:Hami sanga ta bolnu par6 ne.Do u i was so upset abt it.Tapai dukhi vayo vane malai pane dukhi banaunu hun6.So nxt time be carefull.

N:Bolna ta man thiyo ni so suti raheko bela ma pani kehi kura garne hope le aayako but saw u sleeping at that time.... so

P:Khub bahana garnu vayeko.Maile uthnu vanda pane jst u neglect me so i feel bad.Wht can i do more than dat.

N:If u asked me once more than may be i'll wake up. But u just leave it & i feel that u don't wanna talk to me as well.....

P:Ummm...I request u thrice evn wid water drops bt u vanne sutna ko pirrr.Leave it.Parsi jane ho pkr if s than i ll also go wid u.

N:u wanna go with me.... of course i'll take u there. i's not sure but my sis in law also wanna go with me. i hope u don't mind at all......

P:Parsi na janu hune.Plz morning ko micro ma jane ne.If u dnt wanna take wht can i say.

N:la jane ho, i also wanna take u to pkr. Let me fixed it ok..... we'll go in morning micro la.

P:Bt ll u take me forever?Meh ta pkr gayo vane audina ne.Paalna saknu hun6 meh jasto lai!

N:la sadhai ko lagi janu hun6 vane ta ma lagi halchu ni, ani palna ta kun thulo kura vayo ra.....

P:Hahaha...Tapai Parsi janu hai ayhow meh chahi pachi au6u sadai ko lagi when i ll be jobholder.

N:ha ha ha ha..... i'll wait for u ok. i'm not sure whether will go pkr 2 maro or day after 2maro. Sure if u're going parsi i'll go anyhow la.....

P:Voli ta jana paunu hunna coz i hav to taste a noodle made by u.Aja ta...If u went to pkr then u wnt come bck to cht to meet us.U may forget us.

N:Thats true, if i went back to pkr i'll be busy myself so don't have time to hang around just like this. And forget all of u, is not a possible for me. i think u might forgets me coz' u got ur bf already, so .....

P:Dnt talk more than tis.Gudnite i think i hav to sleep now....

N:i know u don't wanna talk about him, but truth is u don't wanna forgets as well. So don' mind with my words....... sorry la gud night

P:Dnt kow.There r many thing which proves dat he hav no feelings which i hav.Once he broke up our relation,n made me cry whole day.

N:I don't have any words for u right now...... if i hurt ur feeling, sorry la. I know u can't forget him no matter what happens, but how long will u.....! u've to move on right.....!

P:Testai ta ho nabin,pahila kta crazy hun6 for few month until they get her later gals bcome crazy untill boi want to break up.
N:thats ur thinking only, only matter the person whom u chose in ur life....... some of them were as u discribe but not all ...

P:Yeah,maile pahila nai chodne dherai kosis gare bt...His whole family kow abt me n hav some hope frm me dat i can bring him on a rite track.

N:So i got to know that as well, now he change already coz' of u. So i just hope thats success in ur life.... !

P:Nt coz of me.He himself changed.Maile vaneko k nai maneko cha ra ahile samma.He jst say yes bt dnt obey it.Ane aja audio kina sunna nadiyeko ne?

N:Tyo audio ma personal kura haru chha jun mero ra prava soltini ko bicha ma
vayako ho...! so eklo vayako ma matra sunnu na la...

P:Really wht personal ho testo?Can i 2morow?Wht abt noodles?May i say u something... U r really gud guy so u hav grt impression on me
N:Sure why not... i'll, u can listen 2maro afternoon. U still don't know me that how bad person am i, u still have time to know me la.....If u know that u'll hate me more than him

P:R u kidding me?

N:no i'm serious about it..... u still have time to know me. u told me that u know 100% about me but ..... still

P:Bt how can i kow it?I kow u hav got high temper...

N:High temper.... yea! So that to control it, i'm using different method. Sometimes i can't control at all....

P:Ane aru...U cnt tolerate if ur gf speak to some other unknown guyz to u.N tapai vannun ta so i can kow u 100%.

N:That depends on situation, how u talk to them..... So what i can say to u
P:Hummm.So bad boy bt nt so much dat i hate u.U r pretendina as if u r bad 4 me.Ane aja maile rakheko wallpaper kina change garnu vayeko?

N:u really think that i's not a bad... wow! at least got u to think like that. And u wanna know why i change.... at that time how i felt .... shown by the wallpaper,

P:Wht u felt can i kow it?

N:The wallpaper that i put.... just felt that someone took my heart away from my soul, left me in middle of the ocean where i don't see any hope of return.....

P:Really mm why u changed my wallpaper dat i kept before it.N again i changed it do u kow?

N:I told u already about it. i used to change wallpaper according to my mood sso later on i change again.....! Why u're asking for...? is there got any clues that u wanna tell me before....?

P:Nth...I like dat wallpaper so i kept it.Aywy gudnite.I hav to sleep now.

N:u always hide the things.... i really hate this habit, Why u still don't have trust at all.....Anyway leave it. I forget that u've to sleep already.... have a sweet dream...... gud night

P:I jst like it,nth more.Bring ear phone of ur cell voli at 12 pm so i can listen audios alone,ll u?it ll get chance to kow u in better way. Gudnite.

N:Sorry la i don't have ear phone for this hand phone. anyway sleep well ok

19/04/09

N:Hi....Sorry dear, jaha samma lagcha ma bazar ma aauna samay nai namilne vayo. Ma ahile samma parsa ma nai chhu.... hope i'll be able to return today, if not than 2maro going to return. Plz' don't mind la.....

P:its fine.....

N:So hows ur outing at bazar with ur sis 2day. I hope u've lots of fun yea....!

P:Nothing without u.......

N:i'm also feel bad that i's not able to be there..... Ani sorry la dear mero phone ko battery finished huna lageko chha so reply garena vani narisaunu la....!

P:I was sad more than u do.Aywy i dnt mind n c u soon....

N:U don't believe me.... i wanna return 2day but my work, just got a small hope
only. So i've to stay here till now. If possible i'll try to return 2day. As long as my battery will last i'll reply la...

P:Kata hunu hun6?I hav been waiting 4 u.

N:right now ma ghar ma ho..... timi kata hunu hun6 ta ni, i'm dying to meet u...!

P:Meh ta bazar jana lageko.

N:oh... kina ho ta ni ahile ta bazar matra. Katai bazar ko hawa ta lagena,

P:Hijo shoppin garera vayena so aja pane jana pareko.Jana ta mann thiyena.

N:Oh shopping ta dharo chaleko chha ta.... anyway bazar jana lagnu vayako
rahechha enjoy urself...!

P:Testo hoina.Thanks alot.So khana khanu vayo ta?Ane ama ko kaam banyo ta?I hope it succeed.

N:yea khayara aba prava soltini ko ghar ma jana lageko ho..... aaunu hunna ta.

P:Tapai le bolaunu vaye po aune.Hey can u come to meet me at bazar rite now?I want to meet u.

N:bazar aaune, but how to come. i don't have any means of transport. i wanna meet u as well..... ani aaunu na ta soltini ko ghar ma.

P:It is nt possible coz i m in hospital.I m injured.

N:But how to be there, i think u're with ur mother right....! i wanna come but u
know its hard for me rights now...And what happens to u? i's worried about u

P:Its normal.I slipped when i get off frm bike.Its okay who am i to meet.Aywy njoy da day wid prava di....

N:ok... where are u rights now, i'll try my best to be there. u know that what u mean to me...

P:Vo pardaina aba. i can be okay widout u.Dnt evr try to get in trouble for me.
N:Ani khana khanu vayo ta..... hope tv herdai hunu hun6 hola hoina ta!

P:Yeah,i jst hav it.Tv....Nt at all.Suteko coz headache vayeko 6.Then how u feel abt my new luks?Is nt it horrible...!

N:la cemical reaction vayako ho.just drink lots or water & just do massage . new looks.... i love it.

P:Dnt tell lie to make me happy.If it dnt suits me then i ll coloured black.Plz tell the truth.Water ta thik 6 n mgs kaslai garne?

N:la... being frank with u, its look great on sun light. I prefer this colour as well. Thats not bad at all..... ani massage garne vaneko timro head ko....

P:Really,i was afraid dat i waste money in vain.I invest alot Money for it.Mgs to head bt how?

N:just come to prava soltini's house than i'll massage ur head......

P:U r there.Oh fine,i dnt need.I ll be fine by 2morow mornin n my di also there.How u adjust there wid her.

N:she's sleeping right now. I's playing cards with minu & prava soltini. wanna comes here... i'm waiting for u

P:Nt really willing to u.I get irritated wid my head.Nxt time.U also gonna sleep there?

N:Later i'll go back, just give them company........ anyway ma ko nai ho ra hoina ta....

P:I jst hanged so dnt wanna be there.Aru kunai din hun6?Nvr talk like dat.If u think like dat,mero vannu kahi chaina n 2day i wnt speak to u.

N:ok.... maile aba k nai vannu.

P:I hope i m distrubing u in playing cards.Aywy ll u come to massage my head.It ll be ur kindness to do it.I m waiting for u.

N:where are u right now..... just tell me ! whether i'll be there or not u'll see

P:Sory hai nabin,dai room ma check hanna ayeko thiyo when u mgs me.N when u miscal me i was talking to bjay.Then wht r u doing now?

N:what to do.... just basi raheko chhu bahira......!

P:Risaunu vayeko ta chaina ma sanga coz i dnt rpld u.Aywy still at prava di home.

N:Hoina ma ghar pharki sakeko ho, ani ahile bored lagera bahira baseko ho. what about u!

P:Meh pane bore lagera tetikai soche rakheko chu.

N:la k sochnu vayako ho ta ni.... hami lai pani sunau na ta.
P:Nth...Jst past ko kura haru ho.Testo pane k vannu....Chitto pkr janu na...Ll u do dat?

N:u wanna me to go back to pkr, thats fine..... i'll go. lets see the situation if there is no strike on wed i'll go on that day or may be i'll go on teus as well. So don't worry for that......!

P:Its ok bt go soon.Dnt mind la.By the way did u give up ur cigeratte?

N:k ko mind garnu ni, k garnu mind nai chhaina. joker ko pani mind hun6 ra.... ani cigarette give up already but going to fall sick soon enough.

P:Hahaha...Badarrr...Wow,dat great news.I m so happy u cnt also imagine.Ane kina ne sick hune?

N:its nothing..... just the weather is going to change so that i'll get sick.

P:Cigarette chodera sick huna ta lageko hoina?Plz if so then u can have it.I heard dat u can leave sabai tara churot sakdaina re so i jst....

N:so u just what....makes fun of me...? Did u enjoy urself,

P:No i dnt meant it.I jst wanna realise u dat u should give up cigarette also,nt more dat.Risayeko ho.Tapai sick hun6 aba!!!

N:kina risaunu ni ma ta sabai teeth dekhayara hasi raheko chhu ni ta, maile risaya ra nai k garnu chha ra.

N:Anyway i don't want to asked what i need from u...! Its a matter of fact i know most of the things about u as well. So just leave it...... it doesn't matter even thought i's able to leave cigarette. So just forget it la.. ani u know my handphone problem well....... so if i didn't reply plz' sorry....!

P:U mean now u dnt to chat wid me?

N:Don't be like that.... i'm serious about it. if u don't believe me than i didn't have to say anything.

P:I was kidding.I trust u alot more than myself,i only want ur simle on ur face.I u gonna be than u can hav it,gudnite n sleep tightly..

17/04/09

N:Hi dear, i saw u sitting outside alone just now. And i got to know that u're so angry that u've not taken ur meal as well. U're angry just ur family's didn't allow u to go ktm....!

P:Hi....

N:Hi.... sutnu vayako chhaina.

P:Dnt u kow meh timi jasto vayeko 6u...

N:dhukha lagyo sunera..... k garnu aapno jasto banana mann ta thiyana, ani.....!

P:Hey i jst luked dat chinese film,it made me cry alot.Do u kow i cnt c any luv story film,my tears roll down...N khana ta?

N:Khana..... vayako 6aina, what about u...? ani ris maryo ki marena ta timro.

P:Kina na khayeko? riss!Kahile ko?

N:Hijo ko ris ni ta.... ris le din bhari ghar ma sutnu vayako hoina ta,

P:How u get dat?Its my fault coz micro depart at 6 am bt i wake up at 5:30 am dat also widout packaging.I was angry coz my ph was hide by my di so.

N:Don't try to lie me, ur mom also told already about it. And u're not talking with ur sis since tuesday. To me its really hard to lie, that i don't like at all.......

P:I swear.Its nt.Ama le aja jaa vaneko thiyo bt i didnt go.U cn ask her.Adi biswas garnu hunna vane mero vannu kahi chaina.Aywy i was thinking dat...

N:what u're thinking anyway.... ! if i don't believe.... u can guess what i'll do with myself ha ha ha

P:Wht u r gonna do wid urself...

N:nt... what u're thinking anyway, just wanna know.

P:Today...I was thinking dat....U wanna slap me coz i speak to..... through ur.Am i rite hero?

N:i'm not that much of fool to slap u... just u talk through my phone, its a minor thing for me. as i told u already about it so not gonna repeat everytime la....

P:Really,dat means u passed in my 1St test.I was jst having test dat u ll trust me or nt.Aywy keep it up.... n moreover keep in touch...Gudnite

N:Wow... great surprise for me. i never thought that u gonna test me like this, that means u don't believe me at all. sorry to say thatit hurt my feeling.... Anyway gud night, i'l be in touch.

P:Really u got hurt.....

N:I never thought like this till now, and even u didn't mentioned about it also fine for me....... but right now.......

P:Bt now.....Wht?

N:Now i feel that u didn't trust me at all....!

P:Hey wht u mean? its jst for a smile on ur face.Its like a test done by u on me last time abt eloping....I was also thinking real as u do today.

N:i know about it that u won't going to elop whatever happens. so just teased u only... anyway just leave this topic. now we're equal......

P:Dats wht i like.If i said s to elope then....aywy my bal is getting to be null so gudnite.I ll mgs u after three days,till than gudbye.....

N:If u say S than i'll take to my house as wif.....u're going to message me after 3 days later.... how that can be possible, if ur balance is getting low than i'm gonna send u pin code... u can use it

P:I m sorry i wnt use it coz i used ur money many times.Nt more dat.I m nt frankly speaking wid mom so i cnt ask wid her.So its my last mgs.Gudnite.

N:I don't like how u think..... its not a big deal, so 4833254832362, just used it. i don't wanna listen any excuse ok.

P:U r really so jiddi...I promise u 1 day i m gonna pay ur all money wid interest.Is dat fine....

N:u wanna pay with interest... but interest rate, u cannot imagine what it'll be.... ha ha ha so just forget about it la.

P:Wht ll be int rate?Umm...10% or more then dat...How could i forget it?Hey is dat true dat my mom told u i wasnt having meal n sleeping yesterday.

N:ummm... u just cannot imagine as i told u. And to be frank with u, ur mom don't talk to me anymore coz of fuss that made me popular. I don't know why... ? just got to know from someone....!

P:Its minu di talking abt me..

N:May be.... but i promise that i won't involved.... so i'm sorry for that. Anyway i thought u tell me good bye right....! U know what it means

P:Yeah i m sure c had told it n its a truth bt i m no longer wid my temper.Let u kow i got a short temper nt like urs.Bye means....

N:Ha ha ha i've seen yesterday already hows ur temper...! More than mine, i got surprise to know that as well...! U don't know what's the meaning of good bye....!

P:No i agree dat i hav high bt it last short. Nowadays i controlled bt bfore u cnt imagine.Aywy wht it means?I hav no total idea abt it.

N:good bye... we used that word only those people whom u don't see or wanna see anymore. So i'm sure u don't wanna see me anymore right...!

P:Really,i dnt kow abt it.Then i m gonna return my gudbye frm u.Is dat okay.Hey rnt u angry wid Me when i leave u tis afternoon widout saying...
N:Why should i..... ! there's nothing wrong at all. Its upto u whether in say to me or not, For this kind of small thing dose not count on me.

P:I kow u r angry for it.I was suppose to say bt i cnt say i wAnt to go so i moved. hey i forgot to ask,wht abt ur cigeratte n whisky?U hav jst 3 days left

N:whisky.... i don't drink anymore, as i told u.... i'll do only social drink. other than that, no more already. Cigarette..... final stage. i'm gonna leave it for u,

P:Gud to kow it wid a happiness in my heart.Let see ur final stage goes success or nt. is dat shirt fits u or nt?I was thinking to ask u?

N:Final stages.... my words and a bullet cames out from barrel won't return. So i'll get through.... be ready for it. And shirt u'll see whether fits or not 2maro morning la.

P:Bt voli ta ghar bata bahira na niskine plan cha.Aywy try it within u.I wanna see u in dat dress at ur b-day.Is dat okay.Plz tell me do u realy like it?

N:Sure why not...? So u wanna see me on my b-day with that dress, anyway thats cool shirt, u know i got similar short only different is strips colour.....

P:Really,dat means ur choice tally wid mine n again gud to kow it.I jst luv guyz in t-shirt so i choose it.

N:huh... u luv t-shirts, but dear u bought a shirt for me. its amazing.....! Don't u think so

P:No i jst mean shirt.I gotta confuss sory for dat.

N:Jus kidding dear, i luv to wear shirts.... but hate to use iron. Its just boring things for me do iron on shirts.....

P:Whenever its time to iron jst bring it to me,i jst luv to iron it.Bt i m nt perfect to do it.I jst come to hear dat u used to give ur gf flower everyday?

N:yea.... every time, whenever i meet her. it doesn't matter the time or place, it may be working place or public place. just gave her a rose of her choice.... anyway what colour or rose u like to have from ur bf......

P:So swt.I kow u still luv her n c too.I obviously prefer blue colour coz i dnt exit.I alway prefer impossible things.

N:f i luv her till now than i won't be here. For me i forget those times already and don't wanna remember as well. past is past, now she's just a good friends of mine. Now i know u're mean to think like this.......

P:No when i heard something abt ur past,i gotta to think dat u r crazy alot.If resam had done such things to me i wnt cry for him ever.

N:she's just innocent just like u, but past is past. i wanna move on without
her...... just being myself. so i don't think there's got her fault, its just a metter of time & situation that made us apart. But u're still with him, So i's happy to know.

P:Yeah its a truth.I dnt lie u so i wanna let u kow.To be frank he also luvs dat i feel when we speak in ph bt if i dnt call me,he wnt gonna call.I feel bad.

N:What to say..... ! i wish for best as a best wisher only. i wish can do anything to success ur love. i don't wanna see that lifes goes on like mine.....!

P:I jst wanna share all tis wid u bt i didnt get any rite time.I was weak to leave him coz he call me sanu...I jst luv to hear tis word everytime.I hope u mite get bored wid by words.Aywy gudnite n hav a swt drms.....

N:i don't feel bored with ur words, i don't likt to think like this again as well. Anyway gudnight and have a sweet dream la

15/04/09

N:Hi k gardai hunu hun6 ta ni....! Prava soltini ko camera liyara aaunu vannu vayako chha.

P:Camera!I dnt hav idea abt.Khoi tahi pane meh auna vaudaina.Sory for it...

N:La prava soltini ko ghar ma aaja photo khichne re so.... i think camera tehi nai chha!

P:Really,prava di lai linA pathaunu na.I cnt come coz i m sleeping till now...

N:its ok.... prava soltini pani aauna paunu hunna re....! Are u going to ktm 2maro...!

P:Still nt sure.Mom really dnt want to let me go.Let see...

N:ok..... i hope i'll go back to pkr soon enough. Still not sure when...

P:Dats fine...

N:So u wanna go with me pkr..... 2maro. I'll take u there so that u can get
freedom as well....

P:Kina ra?Tes pachi ma kahile pane ghar ferkera na aune meh.

N:la ma sanga gaya pachi kaha pharkine ra.... bageko khola pani pharkera aaucha ra,

P:U mean we gonna elope...

N:la la bholi muglin ma vetauna ta, ani sangai pkr jaula ni ta sadhai sadhai ko lagi. will u come......

P: think i m too young for it. moreover u hav go through long way to win my heart.So wait for dat day.Abt my freedom,i can grab it very soon.

N:I's just kidding, we're not going to elope at all. I'm gonna win ur heart than.... ! I got to know ur freedom is near

P:Stupid!U r really...I kow u only wanna kow wht types of gal am i?So u r havin so many test on me.

N:Not at all, i know about u so much. So just wanna tease u only...... sory i's not making fun of u....

P:Woaaa.So i got to kow u well now.

N:Thats great to know. Will u tell me some of them so that i'll know whether
true or not....

P:U r naughty n stupid boy.I hav thinking dat i hav no trust 2wards u bt it was vice-versa.U still dnt trust me.Wht can i say?

N:If i don't trust u than... just imagine urself. I won't be like this.... coz' yet i love u. I's not testing u, just wanna makes u happy and see smile on ur face.

P:How can u kow dat by making such a test on me i ll be happy
N:When i asked something u'll be on tension mood but later if i told u.... just kidding, u'll get relax and cool. It also bring smile on ur face..... !

P:Hahaha...Kasari thaha hun6 ki dat i ll smile?

N:i can feel it from my heart..... its true right. u laugh whenever i told u things like that.....

P:No way...I get into temper.Aywy njoy da day wid my didis.

N:without u my days were like desert, where u don't see anything at all. I's just sleeping..... i thought u'll come hare,

P:32 teeths dekhayera hase rakheko cha hola. lala bye...

N:La kina ho ta ni testo nisthuri vai dinu vayako. Ani sutna lagnu vayako ta hoina....

P:Nt xactly.Tv her6u aba.So...

N:la ta ni... aba maile k vannu ra timilai, la tv herna januhos na ta.

N:Hi.... aja ta suti saknu vayako ho ki,.... missed call ko reply pani garnu vayana.

14/04/09

N:Ani bazar ma nai hunu hun6 ki ghar aai pugnu vayo ta ni..... Oh yea! mero lagi k launu vayo ni...!

P:Something special,its a suprise.Meh still at bazar,bus nai chutyo.Ll u come to
pick me here?

N:i wanna come there to pick u, but i don't have any transport to be there....... U can get another bus upto saradha nagar right

P:I cnt find anything.We r scared.Dai pane chaina plz try to understand.Do come fast.

N:yea i can understand... but how to get there. by cycle take more than 1 hour to reach. So......

P:Cnt u do dat for me?

N:I wanna come there, u know i don't have anything to be there fast, i'll come to saradha nagar to take u la...

P:Hahaha i was kidding,we r coming by tempo n dai ll pick up us at shardanagar so dukha nagarnu bt i wnt to c u...I ll mgs u later.

N:i thought u're really in trouble, but u always make me fool.... anyways see u later. i'll wait for ur message ok.

P:Then did u like it?

N:Sorry la i've not seen yet. But i's angry that u bought it that never imagine ...

P:Why u didnt seen till now?I hope u didnt like it,i dnt kow wht u like.Sory hai dat i made wrong choice.

N:nothing like that, i's with minu and prava soltini at ama pati.....So i don't have time to see ur gift

P:Kasto Rahe6,mero gift herne time pane chaina.sory to kow it.

N:its a t shirt right...... even thought i've not seen it but it'll be beautiful. U know that there's no electrity at all....

P:Wrong,its only shirt.Khoi mann pardaina hola tapailai.

N:la timile diyako gift pani mann na parne ta kurai chhaina ni ta..... u know i's still carrying ur gift with me.....

P:Testai lagyo,its a new year gift.Aba yo barsa vari naya lugga launa paunu hun6.Didi kows dat i hav bought a gift 4 u,c is angry wid me.

N:i's just joking with u but...... than why did u bought it ?
P:Hav u seen it?Its new yr gift 4 new fren.

N:later i'll see ur gift la...ahile ta hernai mildaina so aama pati bata return vayara herchhu ni....

P:Testo hudaina.U hav to luk it rite.If nt then i wnt speak to u.

N:U want me to look it right now.

P:yea...!

N:its a check shirt, mixed of creamy white, red, its great. Thanks alot for the
gift. i appreciate ur.......

P:R u kidding wid my choice.Did u really like it?

N:Of course i like it ur gift. i never thought u can guess what i like......! i'm impressed

P:Really,Hey jst take me to pkr,summer is killing me.is dat cool place?

N:its not totally a cool place but u'll feel more comfortable than here coz most of the day u can see raining, so it'll be great if u like rain....

P:I jst luv to be wet in rain.So when u r going to take me there?

N:Of course i'll take u there.... it'll be my pleasure to take u there. But will u come with me...!

P:Yeah...I heard dat u hav bought many sarees,do u like saree?

N:yea... actually i brought those sarri's to give my relatives. but i just put it...... Do u like sarri's or not...!

P:Yeah bt in parties bt dnt kow how to put it.I had wear it twice bt it is really difficult to handle.Than why dnt u submit to them?

N:Lets see, if not than i'm gonna burn all of them. if u wanna get some than i'll give it to u ..

P:Dnt do like.Jst distribute to ur relatives.Why to burn it,nvr do like dat.Malai launa ta audaina,layera k kaam!

N:may be in future u can use it. anyway i've not seen it. i heard , all clothes got fungus so lets see....

P:Hahaha...Do u kow how to put them?

N:Don't know la... i just love it, thats why i bought them just to give my relatives....

P:Do u like gals wearing saree?

N:yea.... why u asked me ! or u just trying to test me...!

P:Nt xactly,yeshma test garne k cha.I hav also bought one,bt dat is nt
beautiful.Timi lai khub ama partee jana mann par6 ho?

N:Not exactly, i don't like to go there. k garnu ghar ma basda boring ko sath ma timro yaad le satau6. So fresh up my mind.......

P:aaa....mero yaad na aaos vanere po janu hun6.i also jst hate it.do u kow anil
dai was talking abt u yesterday. he was angry wid me.
N:Not exactly la..... ani kina risaunu vayako ha ta ni...is that coz of me,

P:No i jst neglect him.He suggest me nt to be frank wid u.Do u kow he is crazy to me.Still he luvs me bt i behave him like a dai.

N:oh ! i am sorry, thats why he look me as if angry with me....

P:Really,voli i ll scold him n ask him to behave gud.Hun6?Ane kti baja ghar ferkinu hun6 ta?Ahile samma!

N:Plz' don't do this..... its ok. i'm on the way to home already. U can see me through ur windows.

P:Alone.....

N:No.... in group. but u can notice me coz' i's playing my hand phone ....

P:Sure...Wid ur army force.

N:not my army force.... only have u, minu, prava, kamala & kanchi soltini only,
others only hi & hello.

P:Wht abt chhyan giver?

N: don't talk to her as u & ur sis.... so u can guess what i wanna say!

P:Yeah,u r too gud boy.I cnt identify u coz everyone is playing their cell.K
garne mobile ko jamana cha.

N:i's walking alone... at last so that u can recognize me.... anyway its ok, i know its really hard at night......

P:Yeah.Aywy gudnite its too late

N:yea... just relax and have a sweet dream, sleep well ok. I hope to meet u at prava soltini's house 2maro afternoon...

P:Nt possible.Voli ghar bata bahira na niskunu parla.Sayad parsi ktm jan6u hola wid anil dai.Ahile bore lageko 6 jana wid him.He is talkative.

N:So you're going to ktm with him. Anyway just treat him as normal and used the word of bro every time. He'll understand whats in ur heart after all. If u're really going than just let me know ok..!

P:Wht to kow?

N:If u're going to ktm on day after 2maro. But i'll missed u like hell after u left, i don't know how to pass my time here...

P:Tapai kahile janu hun6 ta?Hami yaha pane tati vatdaina,why to worry!I hope u can meet at ktm if u r free.Hey can u tell something abt manpower so i can do sOmetHing to vena coz i m planning to join bba.I dnt wana missed it.

N:For the manpower thing have to talk face to face personally. If not they gonna cheat u as well..... i's also planning to go pkr by friday. Than i'l go back to ktm with in 3 days time. Than hope to meet u.....

P:Ll u do plz coz ur only my last hope to escape me out frm tis trouble. till dat time i may return to cht.Bt i hoping to stay there for 1Month.

N:I'll try my best to get out u from this trouble. I got ur sis contact no. i'll try to contact her so that i can understand what in their mind.So that i can make up my mind accordingly ok. Its ok even thought u return back to chitwan by that time.... just have one wish don't forget me..!

P:Hey dnt contact them.C is evn narrow minded.So i try to stay a month, only wid me.Later i ll show de way.Di share wid my mom n again think ngtv.

N:Ok than how i know what type of job to find and other things that i have to know before i talk to manpowers people. For that u need to know everything about ur bro in law .....

P:He is specialise in cook.That much i kow.I think i m makin bore wid my words...

N:cook.... hummm, i'll try my best to find it ok. Don't worry about it. And i's happy that u've shared ur things with me... not boreing word! I appreciate ur feeling

P:Aywy i think i hav to sleep though i m nt feeling sleepy.

N:Ok, u can relax. think u're tired today coz' u went to bazar.... if u're bored than can message me anytime la.!

P:I ll be kina taha cha!Tapai ko chalan chainan ta mgs r ph garne.So i hav to recall u again n again....

N:oh yea.... ! thats why i asked u, ha ha ha just kidding. If u give me missed call than i'll know u're alone or in free place. So that i can call back or message u......

P:Quite clever like crow...Risaunu hola ne.Okay gudnite.Tapai pane sutnu aba...

N:Timile vane pachi pani na sutaula ta ni.. ma pani aba sutchhu la... have sweet dreams, sleep tightly la

P:O ho.Lala sutnu gudnite dnt rply hai,if nt then we cnt stop chating.Hav swt drms n sleep loosely...

13/04/09

N:Hi, ahile samma sutnu vayako 6aina ho... ani k gardai hunu hun6 ta ni...wil u come to rani pokhari, just to hang around, i heartly request u...!

P:Kata hunu hun6?

N:Ani k gardai hunu hun6 ta ni, minu soltini ko ghar tira aaunu hudaina...! Anyway khana khanu vayo ta....

P:Ahile kaha ho vannu na?

N:ma minu soltini ko ghar ma basi raheko ho. Ani kata hunu hun6 ta ni....

P:Hamee ekchin pachi auchu.

N:la la i'm waiting for u.... ok!

P:S2u....U r too gud.I like u!

N:Are u sure u like me... ha ha ha nice to know

P:R u still there?

N:no... ani broo le gali garnu vayo ki vayan ta ni... ma ta prava soltini lai puryauna gayako chhu....

P:Thoda thoda...I can bear it for you.

N:i feel glad to know it, but unhappy coz' u get scolded everytime.....

P:I was jst kidding...Gali khane ta mero aadat vahi sakyo.Ferkinu vayo ta?

N:yea... ahile room ma tv herdai ho. Nindra nai lagena, timile gali khada malai pida hun6.

P:Nvr say like dat.Dai le gali garnu hun6 coz he luvs me alot.He want to make me innocent n simple gal which i lacks.So i feel bad too...

N:treat u like this... u think he loves u. I don't think that, he should treat u another way, just give u suggestion. i know ur pain even thought u did't tell me.

P:Hey may i tell one thing?

N:sure why not...! and for that u don't have to asked me, u can share anything u want freely.

P:Villagers r gossipin abt u n other didis.Evn ur chhyama was saying abt it wid my mom n c told me,suggest me nt to be close wid u.

N:what u believe... ! gossip or the truth. I know everything whats goingon around me. i just listen and through it. if they're really think than just come infront of me and tell me face to face than i'll tell the truth..... anyway they don't dare to do it, just like to gossip & distroy the relation of others....

P:Yeah i can better understand it.After all village is a village.They all r narrow minded.I 2nt tolerate if other gossip abt u so i m telling.
N:yea i also feel bad to know it. And i know who's making this kind if fuss everywhere. But i's over here as a visiter so i don't wanna make any trouble for u and others as well so i close myself....! I know what am i doing so don't care about it. So plz u 2 just ignore the fuss... everyone will shutdown themselves/....

P:Its all abt gossiper n wht abt today u made urself so silent so get bored.I was hoping to speak alot wid u n came to meet u wid lots of....Bt....

N:i's mood of coz' of mina's mom. she made lots of fuss about her daughter with my aunt. She tells me everything. And some more u're not talking as well... and when i sit with u, u just turn ur face !

P:Did she talks abt me also wid ur aunt?wanna talk wid u bt nt so close,i bcame uncomfortable. u better kow how much i feel shy wid guyz...

N:u feel shy with guys..... oh i don't know that. But i thought u'll come with us to hang around rani pokhari, but....

P:U told me so late,datsway.I feel u dnt wana take me.Plz say na...Was minas mom said anything abt me also?

N:She didn't say anything about u. just about me & milan that i called everytime from rani pokhari and asked her to meet outside.... but i treat her like my own sis, i never thought about it and call that was not me either coz' its been long time already i''ve not been there....just wanna make fuss of nothing

P:Oh dats da topic.Aywy her habit is like dat,c comes in shop n start gossip. hate .N my kancha baba,i think he kow abt us so wana always hang arouNd me.

N:i don't think so coz' most of them think that i's with prava soltini. As u know most of the days i've started to be with her. I don't know what they'll get after doing such things... !

P:Hea...U really jst gonna make me like u.I dnt kow why i dnt feel sleepy till now...I m also listing in ur category

N:Thats to bad to know. i don't wanna make u like me, but hope one day i'll make u mine ! Oh i think u slept afternoon right so u don't fel sleepy at all

P:To make me urs u hav to pass through a long way.If ur luv is true then i ll be urs if nt....Aja i cnt sleep coz of horrible summer.

N:lets see whether my love is true or not, time will shows it. i'll wait for u, and make u mine and give u freedom that u never had! just like a parrot escape from the cage....

P:It ll my pleasure to see dat day when u ll prove urself.Hey,do milan luvs mina?

N:yea.... if he's playing with her than he can do anything to her till now. Only he loves her so that she's still like this...... i think u can understand what i mean ...!

P:Bt she hav got bf dat also married guy havin 3 childrens.Still he luvs her,so swt...If i was milan...
N:i don't know more than that. He used to shared everything with me so i got to know. Anyway if u're milan than...... what u do ?

P:I ll search another gal.Hahaha same like u.Aywy dherai types ko luv story hun6, they all r fake except some...

N:So how u look my love towards u..! its fake or true? Yea... true love only few u can find....

P:To identify it i should take a long time period. then only i could reaLise
it.i m really appreciate luv story of my fren,which i also prefer too.

N:ur frens love story... is that about a true love! i wanna do true love for u. This will be my last love that i'll ever done to anyone....

P:Yeah,c is my collegeous as well cousin.Luv vaneko testo hunu par6,evn both family accept it.De day when i feel,u really luvs me i ll accept u.Till then u s jst a bst fren,nth more then dat.IF i dnt feel such like dat then i can reject u also so...

N:As i told u before already that u've right to do it. I'll accept it as ur gift... till that time wait for u and prove myself that its my true love that i've done second time and last time in my life.....!

P:Gud to kow it n bless for success in it.I think i hav to sleep now coz its early morning.

N:Thanks alot for that. if there really have god than he'll blessed me for success. I wish 2066 god give u .12 mnth of hapines,52 weekS of fun ,365 days
sucess, 52600 minutes good luck,3153600 second of joy.
~*Happy New*~ ~*Year*~once more... gud night la

P:Huh!I think tapai ko pane sutne time vayeko jasto lagyo.So u also sleep n dnt smoke alot coz it injurous to ur health.U got it...Keep in touch.Gudnite...

N:As u say... i'll control my smoke as well. hey i've just finished watching movie... all about a true love,... so beautiful that i just love to watch it...!

P:Can u named it?

N:its a chinese movie called butterflies lovers, Did u watch? its so nice..... just love it

P:Nt at all.I ll get dat soon.I admire korean movies more then chinese.Aywy gudnite.

N:korean movies were best to watch specially love story. i used to watch online but now u hardly get nice movies here on dvd so if able got get than i'll watch. Anyway its time to sleep already. U've to wake up early so just have a sweet dream & gud nite la....!

P:R u going to sleep now?

N:yea.... i's already on the bed. what about u..... u don't wanna sleep.../!

P:Meh ta bed mai ho.Balla nidra lagyo?It 1St time dat i heard u r goin to sleep.Aywy last gudnite.
N:now i's happy to chat with u after 2 days. So that feel sleepy. .... gud night..

11/04/09

N:Wish u many many happy retuns of the day, i wish it'll bring lots of jay & happiness in ur very life, success will kises ur every steps that u made everyday with fulfilment of ur uncomplete dreams....have fun & take care. Wish u once more...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U....... ha ha ha ha!

P:Thank u so much.I hope u ll be wid me....

N:i've changed..... just to see u happy. so i'll be there for u

P:Thankx again.I heard ur going to pkr today,is dat true?Hijo sudip le mood off garyo,i was gonna kill him...

N:Who told u that i'm going to pkr 2day...? I don't think i've talk to anyone about it.

P:Minu di told me tis evening...Dat also coz of me...

N:Don't lie to me dear... u just wanna test me coz' we never talk about it today,

P:I swear.Why to test u?I really got my moods off n dnt kow voli i could see u or nt..

N:I think u don't wanna c me at all, so that i feel u're ignoring me .....!

P:Nt xactly.I think my dai dnt wanna it so i couldnt get out of my home.My all plans r gone in water,i m upset.Aywy gudnite.

N:thats means. in some how u wanna forget. Anyway i thought we're going to cafe to celebrate ur b day ..... but i's so up set to know that is not possible either.!

P:Let me see.Bt i couldnt find da way.I m really sorry 4 it,i was hoping to njoy it alot wid u bt bhagya ma narahe6...

N:yea i's hoping to have fun and enjoyed with u 2day. but situation and time always puts us far from each other. I know ur problem very well so no need to be sorry........ ! i wish, could help u some how to get free from this situation....!

P:How u ll get off me frm tis situation?

N:if i got my own house... i'll get u out and married with u. So that u won't
have to live like this....... ! or we'll run for ur freedom.

P:Really,wht abt my aims which i hav been dreaming since my childhood..

N:i won't let u down... for ur dream i''ll sacrifice the things as welll. i'll support your dream.... ! i think u won't prefer to run..... so i do!

P:Yeah i dnt prefer.May i tell u one thing,i kow u r gud guy,i like u bt it dnt mean dat i want to make u bf.Still there is resam in my heart..

N:yea.... ! i wish ur love would take new turn, towards the success. But one thing that i told myself ... no matter what happens in my very life, u'll be in my heart forever.....! i hope u'll be touch as well..!
P:I could realise how much u loved me.i kow well de luv which u gave me cnt be gain frm any other guyz even resam bt he 1st came into my life wid more tears n lesS smile bt also i am nt able to stop myself to luv him....

N:i wish that he can understand the luv that u've in ur heart. i don't know why......! but just wish for ur beter future as well. U got lots of dreams to achieve... So move on.If ur luv is true he'll return one day.

P:Da way u talk,i jst luv it.Dnt u recall ur x-gf?I kow u luv her more than u do to me.If c came back to ur life,wht ll u do?

N:i used to love her as i'm doing with u. the same love i've done with her. Now we're just a good friends no thing more and nothing less. Even she wanna come back to ma as gf, i don't think i'll love her as in past..... Coz' my love already lose the trust from her......!

P:Yeah its the truth.Wht can i say more than dat?Aywy i wish i could be wid u for 2day.Lets pray wid god dat we may get chance to meet.

N:i hope as well, and i won't pray to god in my life for anything. There's no god at all u're the god by urself just difference to know it and feel it within u.

P:I kow ur logical master...U hav got magic in ur words.I ll try my best to hav a party if nt it might be nxt year.Now i think i hav to sleep...

N:If i can do magic, u know what i'll do... !I'm just a simple man with ordinary dreams.It dosen't matter whether u gave ur b day party or not. i got it already what i wanna know. It's not face to face but at least got to know from others. hey u never know where we'll meet again, but the surprise was still on for u...It may not be at ktm or chitwan But sure gonna message u before...!

P:Do u wanna meet me dat also nt in ktm n cht.If so then i dnt get chance to go other than tis,how we ll meet?

N:lets see... i haven't seen the future, but i can say that i'm going to do that surprise at a very special place of mine. So see how the situation...... ! If we're meant to meet again, there'll be some way as well, time will shows itself....

P:I think u meant to pkr bt how could be possible...

N:Time will shows u the way..... still i've not make up my mind about it. still planning so that most of my frens can join that surprise..... lets see! Anyway u've sleep not, its already too late. Have a sweet dream & take care of urself ....gud night !

P:Most of ur frens means???

N:frens from s'pore as well... they wanna come to my country to loook around, but see how whether or not. Still confused. i'm also not sure.....

P:Really,bt when?It ll my pleasure to meet them.Aywy gudnite n timi pane sutnu par6.Dnt be like owl,i hope timlai balla nidra lageko cha.

N:kahile suteko chhu ra ramro sanga. ani nindra lagnu. aaphno ta life nai yestai chha jasto hun6 pagal ko..... la la gud night.
P:Sutnu par6 like me balla po life short hun6.Pagal ko life,timro jasto hun6.Today i got kow it.Gudnite...C u soon may be today.

N:Hajur, sutnu hunna ki kaso, k 6 ta b4

P:Khoi nidra lagena.so dnt let others to sleep also...Jst lukin outside.

N:ma pani bahira nai ho, its beautiful night and there no disturb at all... santa chha aaja ko raat katai huri lagera hola...!

P:Tapai chahi kina na sutnu vayeko?Meh ta din vari suteko thiyera po nidra nalageko.Aba chahi sut6u n u too...

N:kahile suteko chu ra ramro sanga, sutne ta eauta bahana matra vayo aba. jab hunchha mann ma halchal, kasari nidaunu jab baddai jancha mann vitra ..... ! plz' u can sleep i's like that before and now as welll....

P:Ll u come to my party plz.I m heartly requesting u...If nt i wnt speak to u.

09/04/09

P:Dinner vayo?Aywy i was missing u alot so...Its my 1st n last mgs 4 today coz i hav critical bal.C u 2morow.Gudnite n sleep loosely..

N:yea.. i's just having my dinner. i can understand the situation of ur. U can imagine how much i missed u till now. Anyway have a sweet dream & take care la...

N:Nabin i m really sorry today.Ll u forgive me.?Plzz...

N:its ok... i's not totally angry just u walk away without finishing ..... so i's upset with u..

P:I was afraid so i cnt tolerate it.

P:Timi sachai risayeko ho?So u didnt rpld.I got kow dat u wnt nvr gonna mgs n call me?

N:why to afraid with me... i'm not lion or bhalu so that i'll eat u. i told u already that ur decision will be last...

N:i never told and say to myself about it also. mailt timilai true maya gareko thiya but.. i don't know what i missed... but i's not angry at all....

P:I was afraid coz u might be thinking me a play gal..i was feeling guilty.I wnt to say before bt u made me weak.

N:why should i think like this...? As we know every one got either bf or gf, some of them become true love but most of them... u know what i wanna say! I got to know some of the things that u didn't tell me before...... that won't make u weak. just ur feeling only!

P:Xactly.I got everything in my life except loving bf.I hope mero bf kasto cha vanera didi lai vanyo hola.

N:i hope to know that from u, but ur sis told me about it little bit. For that i fel sorry to myself ....... its not the problem that u're facing, its ur fear... u've to overcome.

P:Wht u mean it? n wht u wanna ask me?

N:i didn't wanna asked u anything more....! i got to know whatever wanna know.
So.....

P:Wht u think?

N:what to think...? just nothing... a blank, where i don't see anyone just a shadow of someone so closed to my heart... now that one also trying to left me alone!

P:Do u think i luv u?

N:I thought so.... but i don't know whether right or wrong to think like this..... i don't know myself why i think likt that......!

P:I myself dnt kow ans...Bt still he is also in My heart.I cnt forget him.

N:yea... its ur love, what i can say about it. I wish ur love will come back for u.....

P:I M still waiting for him.almost everyday i was upset abt him bt whenever u came into life i use to be happy.I kow he luvs me bt nt like me.

N:i won't say its love..... love won't count whether u like or not. that just a attraction of opposite only....... ! So i won't say that's love at all

P:Do u wnt to say dat i dnt luv him?

N:i don't mean to say that u don't love him. just think that he's just using u for time pass... i don't mean to hurt ur feeling at all. I know the habit of boizs... coz' me myself as a boy i can tell u this....!

P: I really dnt hav idea whether he is using me or nt.How can i trust u dat u hav also same feeling.he used to crazy like u bt now...

N:As i told u everything depends on trust & understanding to each other. If u don't have any trust than i don't have to say anything to u....

P:How could i kow abt u?N kata hunu hun6 ahile?Cafe hidera ayeko vane hamilai,pachi ta cycle ma...

N:joking gareko thiya hider aauna sakne thau ta hoina.... ahile ma dada bat aaudai ho..

P:Kosko ma janu vayeko ne?

N:i don't know whose house,... just went there with prave soltini...!

P:I can peep u through da window.

N:So......

P:DekheKo vana khojako n walking alone...Dnt luk pretty gud in stromy nite.

N:But i love to walk on like this...... it'll fresh up me.

P:Yeah i kow u luv lonelyness.I kow u well.

N:yea loneliness with my best fren..... no matter what happens, it won't leave me for a moment also.... ha ha ha

P:Where is a place for me if lonely is...I hav jst notice dat outside is Lukin cool wid moonlite.I realy luv it.

N:For u.... that place where no one can take and see....! u know where's place. yea! its a beautiful night.... but u can't see from 2maro onwards even thought u wanna... i just playing with it,....

P:Voli kina na dekhne ne.I ll sure 2morow also.How u play wid it?Bt today i feel gud coz i told u da truth.

N:coz' 2maro onwards start dark night, u only see stars not the moon light as today. Just sit alone and watch the moons with strong current of wind....!
P:Yeah mr. dnt stay outside feri hawa le slim manche lai udayera laijala... then we hav to crY.

N:hawa sanga udna ta man thiyo, tara dhulo sari vayo mero hal. jun ra tara chuna ta ma thiyo, chunne aashai aash ma jiban jane vayo...... ani kina rune din aaune thiyo ra malai udayara laijadai ma.... !

P:Tapai lai taha chaina hola soltini haru le kati maya gar6 vanera.U were so close to our heart especially to mine.Thank 4 carin me at bikram...

N:Betika samaya na sanjhau malai, mutu jalchha pida le. bhuleko chhaina ti din haru.... kasari bite mero din ra raat haru, jhaskinchhu ahile pani sapani ma, katai yo bipana ta hoina vani..... it's my pleasure to know that, i's happy to know it, even thought if i died right now.... i feel glad to myself that there's someone who'll remember me...

P:Past khusi le biteko cha vane samjhada farak pardaina.Dnt talk again abt death..I hate it.

N:life and death are rules of living, u never know when & where u've to face it. sorry.... u don't like to talk about death. but i've seen it so closed enough that don't have fear to lose it.....!i just love....

P:If i say same thing u dnt feel anything which i feel rite now.

N:what thing that i don't feel right now.... !ummmm... so far u're the one whom i love most... other than that....

P:Nth jst kidding.I kow wht i feel abt death which i prefer.I really dnt wana live.I m bored wid my life though i hav everything.

N:Still u're not totally open up with me, i can say u're hiding something that u don't wanna share with me.... fine i won't asked u as well !

P:Nt exactly.I m bored n nt willing to anything in future too.Hey may i invite for my b-day party to u?n gonna celebrate newyear together.

N:I wanna be there to celebrate ur b day, but i can't promise u that i'll be there. U know my work and problem very well.... so i may not be here, lets see the situation

P:Tapai chahera pane jana paunu hunna coz i wnt let u go.Maile na janu vanda pane janu hun6 ra?Dukha lagyo tapai le garda!

N:chaheko sabai pugne vaya, sadhai ma magi rahane thiya. it'll be my pleasure to be in ur b day party, i don't know myself kam le kun bela turn garauchha ma pani vanna sakdina. i've spent my time and effort to do it for 2 years....! dukha namannu if ma vayana vani....

P:Meh ta dherai dukha manne ho.Tara voli bata bandha cha evn bike chaldaina,how u ll go?If u gone,i wnt speak wid u 4ever.

N:Are u sure u won't speak with me,..... that too bad to know. see how the situation. i really can't promise u right now, i've compromise lots of things in my life to do this job, even i've forget to enjoy myself.... i've left my family just to do this.... so plz try to understand.... ! i may not get the same chance again,
P:Dnt n kow i m gal widout mind.Thikai cha mero khusi timro lagi compromise hun6 vane wht i can i understand frm it.

N:i know... i've hurt ur feeling, ur happiness is everything for me. But situation... ufff i wish i can stop it forever just for u to see happiness in ur life.

P:Let it be.Malai sabai kura vujyo..Go then.Who am i to stop u?Hey today is kamala soltini b day,did u wish her.Me jst wished her,wnt u?

N:Be true with u.... u're my life. how can i left my heart so unhappy and sad. But why i didn't feel it the same way.... anyway i've already wish her....!

P:I dnt think so!U knew it?Bt how?Maybe prava soltini told u.Timile ta malai vanda prava soltini lai kura share garne rahe6 ne!

N:I've shared the same thing that shared u before. Differnce is u don't wanna totally opened up with me... so what i can say..... ! Even this evening, u can shared the things with me without hesitation, but u just walk away... never listen to my request as well.... !

P:I think i was flirting u so i cnt bear it evn i hav no words more then dat.I m gonna tell evythg bt when i lukd into ur eyes i was...

N;what u see in my eyes, i'm not animal that u don't have feeling at all.... i'm an opened book so if u wanna know more things just flip the pages, I've shared the things with everyone in same way.

P:I was suppose to say in detail bt when i met u in cafe,i saw ur charming face wid some positive hopes in ur eyes so i dnt wnt to say.

N;i told u that already, positive or negative... just wanna know the whole truth from u face to face. But i's so unlucky person in this world that even whom i love won't trust me..... i got to know the other thing from others.... ! dhikkar chha yo jiban nai!

P;Dnt say like dat.I ll tell u tomorrow if i got chance.Khoi himmat jutauna garo vayo.Aywy aja pakka timi jastai banayo.Ahile samma pane nidra lagena.

N:Sorry k garnu lageko bani chhutauna nai sakina. mann ma kura kheli rsheko chha nindra ta sapana nai ho..... anyway bholi i'm going to cafe with prava soltini, lets go there and talk la....

P:Voli cafe... Impossible cha hola.Wht abt minu di?Dherai manche vayo vane i feel shy to say evn tyo mero di haru nai vaye pane.

N:only prava soltini ho, she asked me for it so.... if u feel shy to tell me, why don't u meet me after lunch... we're going to cafe around 3.30 pm by cycle.....!

P:Why dnt u postpone it to parsi.Everyone ll go includina me n we ll njoy it.Mann ko kura ta pachi gare pane hun6. voli at prava di home.Let me manage it.

N:i've talk with prava soltini coz' i promise her to go 2maro afternoon. Let me see what i can i do about it.... !

P:As ur wish.I dnt stop anyone to go to cafe evn pkr too.I dnt force to anyone.
N:what u mean to say..... ! i really can't get it.

P:La jaha pane jana saknu hun6 vaneko ho.Now u get dat...

N:wow..... it sound angry enough. did u break ur mobile just like me....or hit yourself ummm u guess so!

P:Nt xactly hero...I dnt do like dat.I m nt angry bt jst wanna sleep now.Gudnite n c u voli parsee.....

N:oh i see.... u wanna sleep, plz'! sorry to distrub u. anyway who the hell am i to distrun u at midnight. its my fault... i'm extremely sorry again!

P:xactly...Who da hell i to stop u for goin to da cafe...Parsi mero b-day party ma ta pkr jane re n voli chahi cafe jane re.Voli nai pkr janu teso vaye...

N:Timro ris ta nak ma nai rahechha ni ta, maile ta just joking garera vaneko ta. I wanna test ur anger.... ha ha ha ha

P:Khub ho kura bind gareko.Dnt u kow gharma mero sab vanda badee ris cha...I kow tapai kati clever cha vanere so kura lai arko mood ma lageko...

N:Eventhought u didn't tell me, but i know ur anger verry well. Really i 's just kidding. if i've to go back to pkr, i've left already, I won't come back from saradha nagar. I thought of ur b day so that stay back just to wish u only.

P:Wht?My b-day!!!La balla po jokes vannu vayo.I am laughing....Yo nabin,astinai pane wine laidine vanera joke garyo now also...

N:wine liyara aauchu vanda ma ta khanna vanne timi ani ahile aayara pheri b day ko lagi pani joker banau na khajnu hun6..... i can't believe.....!

P:Khub ho...Lala launu vanda,timro mann choreko ho vanne chahi ko ne.Aru kaam le cht basnu vayeko hola n malai chahi b day wish garne vanera kura milaunu vayeko.

N:As i used to tell u trust ra understanding vayana vane jun sukai relationship hos, either friendship or love, it can't go long lasting.... maile sabai kura shared gareko chhu timi sanga, even my personal... still u don't trust me at all....! so aba k vannu

P:Aba gudnite.I dnt wnt to like u,raat vari na sutne.Kasto manche rahe6.Sayad voli din vari sutnu parla...

N:kehi 6aina ma jasto navaya pani mero vaya dherai khusi, lagne chha maile sabai
kura paya mero jiban ma... ha ha ha ha gud night.... & sleep tight ok

P:Ma matrai.Then take my pic.Hey i m suffering wid c-cold.Im crying.Umm...Ghar vitra ki jungle....

N:timilai paune dhoko ka pura huncha ra pics le...... j vaya pani sath mai chha timro pics jun banchha mero sapani ko sathi.... ma ahile bhitra ho,

P:Kahile pane sutdaina hola...Then how can i come to ur drms...Jungali ta ho.Tapaiko payro jungal ma kina nabasnu vayeko ne moon herdai...

N:aaphule rojeko moon nai ojhelma pare pachi aba k hernu tyo jun lai, jalko matra aauch ani mann ma pida... anyway mero khub majak banau nu vayako 6.... ! mero battery is flat already so i won't be able to reply anymore ok... so gud night &,seelp well
P:Thank god battery le mero mann ko kura bujcha...Hey dnt angry hai,mero bane astai ho.Gudnite

06/04/09

N:dear, i think u didn't sleep as usuall... am i right. And what are u doing ?

P:Whole day almost sutyo aja ta.Khoi malai samjhyo vane matra samjhene rahe6.

N:la timi ta hardam mero sath ma nai hun6 ni.... soche sutnu vayo hola vani distrub nagareko ta....!

P:Not at all.Meh din ma kahile pane sutdina.Aja ta badya vayera sutnu pareko ne. malai ta doubt lagyo...

N:doubt...... la biswas lagdaina vane ta maile k nai vann ra.....Ani cafe janu hunna ta!

P:Sayad najanu parla,i m nt feeling well today so nxt time i ll be there.

N:u're not feeling well... what's wrong !

P:Nth jst a stomach ache bt now i m feeling better then morning.

N:umm.... i think u're not taking your meals properly, So that u got stomach....!

P:Its nt like dat. aywy tea khanu vayo?Aja ta tapai lai dekheko chaina ta.Ghar mai ho?

N:tea ta khayako chhaina, ani timi ghar vitra matra basnu hun6 ani malai kata bat dhekn hun6.....

P:Testo hoina n rite now k gardai hunu hun6?

N:sudip aayako chha ani malai cards khelna jau vanera hairan pareko chha... what about u... i think u're playing cards right....

P:i m also bored now n no line.1st I hav to take shower coz i m dying coz of garmi.U can come after an hour.

N:oh no.. ! u're dying coz' of garmi...um um um don't leave me like this, i can't live without u.

P:Now i m fresh.

N:thank... now u're freshed. have u taken your after noon tea...

P:I nvr prefer 4 it bt sometimes only.Did u!

N:afternoon tea... depending on situation.But i seldom used to take not a habituate.... i think ur going to play cards

P:Yeah hoping u to be here n sudip too.

N:its just a waste of money, so why u wanna play ...

P:Jst 4 time pass n if u dnt like i wnt force u.

P:Thankx 4 playin cards wid us bt sory to lose money,if u want then u can collect ur money frm me.

N:Thanks to u as well... i don't need that money as well. Its for u ha ha ha

P:Risaunu vayeko ho,n ghar pugnu vayo ta?

N:la ma ta timro bro sanga baseko chhu ni ta.... u can see me as well...

P:Really,darr lageko chaina mero dai sanga basda.

N:k ko dar lagnu ni... i's having fun with him la...
P:Hora! lala can i also hav fun wid u rite there.

N:why not... u can come here to have fun lol...

P:Jst kidding,hav fun wid him.

N:so u don't wanna come. i's planning to go back to pkr by 2maro afternoon. So
will u come outside for a moment....

P:Its too hard. let me try after few mins.I was also planning to go ktm parsi,if strike opens.

N:i got to know that there's no strike at all so that i'm going to pkr for my work... so see u later ok....!

P:Yeah, then hav gud journey. nvr forget us.Do u wanna meet me or nt?

N:i wanna meet u thats why.... u? otherwise i won't la. just tell me where u wanna meet me right now or.....!

P:Come to pratikchyalaya i ll be there.Come fast i dnt hav time.Dai taha cha ki chaina.

N:yea... he's still over here. i'm on the way already.... meet u there ok...

N:Ani chok tira janu vayako thiyo ahile recharge card ko lagi..... so hows the gift..?

P:cute....

N:really.... i thought u don't like at all. i bought same things that i've give
u rights now. one will stay with u and another with me.... !

P:Thankx.Nabin my di got to kow dat i was wid u,so c is scolding me alot.I dnt hav mood to talk wid u i ll mgs u 2morow.Is dat okay.

N:why like that... we're just talking only. there's nothing wrong to scold u....

P:Yeah bt c is scolding alot.Its my mistake.

N:Its not your mistake.... just coz' of me u get scolded every time.... i'm sorry for that. If u don't have any mood than u can message me 2maro la in fresh mood....

P:Dnt blame urself everytime.I dnt like it.If dai kows he gonna kill me.So i m afraid Alot abt it.

N:if i don't asked u to meet me right now, this situation won't came.So its my fault......

P:Testo na vanna,i ll tackle it.Dnt worry abt me,god is wid us.He ll help us.

N:yea..... god really wants us to be together no one can separate us.... i
believe in ur god.

P:When mom sees me wid u,it is coz u drinks.Teslai malai raksi khane kta Haru sanga na hidenu van chan.

N:I can understand..... as u know that, i only drink alcohol in my limit. but its occasionly only.... now just to forget stress for a moment only..

P:Bt my family dnt think like dat.

N:yea i can understand the family problem as wel...... even my family also don't like this so i only do occasionally .....!

P:Bt i dnt think so. i hav been noticing Almost everyday.

N:yea, now i've drink almost everyday... you're right. Only at chitwan just to give company my bro..... and u know my stress very well!

P:Stress hudaima raksi khanai parne vanne k cha.I dnt lie recently i was hurt by...N i drank 1 bottle virgin,than i vOmited twice n i realise i wnt gona touch it Nxt time.Its nt good.

N:what u drank virgin.... ? And some more coz' of me, i don't like.Plz don't ever do it again no matter what happens. u won't see me drinking at pkr or ktm. i've start drink recently only.....otherwise i left drinking before.

P:Yeah xactly bt in ktm.I hav catch my ears.Coz of it my elder sis cried so i feel pitty abt it.They search me alot bt didnt get me.I was totally out of control.

N:wow... that means u drink outside, not in the house of your sis. i heard u drank alcohol in ur sis house and vomit as well..... its not a good thing if the drink start to drink u....! so i'm gonna stop drink also.... only occasion drink....!

P:Nice to kow it.Khana khanu vayo ta?

N:yea..... what about u..? ani ktm ma kati basnu hun6 ta ni timi!

P:Nt more than one week.Kaam vayo vanena vane dherai bas6u.Do u think i hav to try fOr uk...

N:u got IELTS so why don't u try for uk as well. its not a bad country as well. But its really hard to survive as a student over there coz of high living standard....!

P:Wht can i do now?I dnt wanna go abroad bt its coz future of vena.I wanna take him bt it becoming hard.He is jobless coz of me so im worry abt it.

N:i didn't get it... coz of u, ur vena was jobless. I think he supposed to find job or go abroad...!
P:He was abroad bt we called him for processing. In dat country he didnt get reasonable salary so it is to survive for them.They had got baby bt now...

N:so sad to know that.... be frank with u, even u're able to get visa for Aus, its really hard to take ur vena as ur husband. For that u've to compromise lots of things as formalities to prove that u're real husband & wife...! Anyway what country he's before...!

P:Bahrain.if i could manage him to gud country then i could join bba n mba n be a bank manager,its my aim which i talked before.So we hav been asking nil dai abt japan for him bt its nt possible.I m confuss wht to choose-my or other future...

N:In my opinion... if u're able to make your future than u can help others to achieve as well. So why don't u full fill ur dream first...? May be i'll help him as well coz' i know some overseas directors. So if i got to know any things... i'll contanct u ok..!

P:Let me c wht can i do for them.Tesh pachi sochnu parla ne! aywy they were in grt trouble coz of money which they hav lost in treatment of their daughter bt we cNt save her.She was jst ten month when c died,it happend jst 9 months ago.

N:sorry to know..! As i told u, why don't u make ur future first than u can help them in both ways and some more i'll also help them......

P:Let me see wht time had store for me.I think i made u bored by telling my family status. i m sorry for it.

N:No no... don't ever think that again ok. i's more than happy to know it. If u're not opened up with me like this... i won't know it in my entire life even i get u in my life also.....!

P:Thankx 4 listening my feelings.Now i can feel relaxed somehow.

N:thanks to u as well for sharing with me. And i've also told u my story.... that i never talk to anyone about my bro & father. but i've opened up with u....at that time i feel relaxed as well.

P:Whtever u say,de life which u hav been living is preferable.I wish i also get same life.Jst live 4 only ourself n no more tension...

N:Everyone think that my life is best, but don't know how hard is to live like this. I thought before that no one will came into my life, but when i saw u, i don't know what happens to mself that i got strong feeling for u. So able to share my part....Ii tell u, to live my life is more stressful than any others one..!

P:When last time u talk abt ur family u made me cry coz i could feel it n evn today.I missed my KELLIS alot n remembered da day before c take her last breathe.

N:Its hard to foget the past but u can't distroy ur future coz of past. u've to move on for yourself & think about others. So move on and achieve ur dream.....!

P:Da white n pink rat is really cute like u.I jst lukd it in lights.How u get it?I havnt seen such a cute rat in bikram baba.We did Find there when we r buying.


N:Good morning dear, sorry that i didn't reply yesterday night message.. i don't wanna make u just like me......

N:Dear, i feel sad right now and don't have mood as well to leave u. i don't know how can i pass my time without seeing u after this.....

P:Hey my family was discussing abt u early morning when u send mgs to me.Dai lukd ur mgs...So didnt rply u dat time.

N:oh shit....... Is it serious coz' i's waiting for the bus. if anything wrong than i'll wait today.....!

P:U can go.I ll manage coz i also go to ktm voli so today i ll tolerate it.Till now they didnt said any thing so hav nic journey.

N:lets see whether the bus will come or not.... i's afraid that ur family would hurt ur feelings coz of me.. !

N:I got a surprise for u... ! anyway what are u doing...

N:Ani tapai ta ghar janu vayako rahe6. ani movie herdai hunu hun6 ho....! Ahile ma prava soltini ko ghar ma chhu ni ta...!

05/04/09

N:Gud morning, Sorry la, hijo reply nai dina payan coz' of balance. so are u still sleeping or....?

P:Yeah i m sleeping till now coz im lazyyy gal. khaja khanu vayo?

N:Not yet... ma pani aaja suti raheko chhu. i feel lazy as well.....

P:Aywy i think i hav to get up frm da bed.Kina hijo dherai hidera jasto lagyo ahile samma sutnu vayeko

N:not at all, just don't wanna wake up. i felt boring so.!

P:Hijo soltini haru sanga kti ko ramailo feel garnu vayo ta?

N: u wanna know true or just wanna test me.....

P:I want to kow true only nt de others...I mean to say do u like de place n hav fun there.Aywy i hav to get up n be fresh.C u soon...

N:All the place were same character, only how u look around and feel it. Be true with u.... i told u yesterday also that you're looking gorgeous, so i lost in u.

P:U r crazy man...

N:u still don't know that i'm a crazy man.... coz' in your love

P:Jst leave de topic.I gonna to be fresh.Mgs u later on.

N:ok i'll wait for ur message la..

P:Hey mr. kaha hunu hun6? I wanna meet u rite now...

N:U know where am i....? where u wanna meet me..! i'll be there

P:At ur home.I m coming to ur home

N:ok....i'll be outside, my favorite place ok..

N:oh! shit, i missed out to give the gift that i's talking about the other night.... later i'll give u ok.

P:Ño thankx hero... i dnt need it n kina ne janu vayeko,i was thinkin to chat wid u...Chatpat khana aunu hai i ll wait 4 u...

N:i'll be there in half an hour later. I also wanna chat with u but.... anyway later i'm gonna give u ok. it's with me

P:Hun6 k gardai hunu hun6 ta?

N:guf gardai baseko ho, k garnu time pass garnu nai garho vayo. Timi sanga chats garnu ta dream ma jastai vayo... just message matra

P:Ko sanga ne. Meh ra kusum ta barima amba khana jana lageko.Wnt u come to eat??

N:kata ko bari ma ho ta ni.... k 6 b4 lanu hun6 ki hudaina ta...

P:Btw me n prava di home.
N:i didn't get it.... u're at prava soltini's house,

P:No,jst come back to ur home,u ll get us on de way...

N:ok i'll be outside prava soltini's house ok.... meet u there.

P:Hey where is my gift...!Hehehe...

N:oh yea.. i got right now as well.... ma pratikchha laya ma hawa khayara baseko chhu...u can collect from here!

P:No thanks.Eklai ho n khana khanu vayo ta?

N:i know that u're going to reject it. Anyway i'm alone with my lonelyness, and khana ta man nai thiyana..... what about u?

P:Kina na khanu vayeko?No i dnt mean it.I hope it might be chocolate,am i rite?Meh ta suteko bt others r playing cards...

N:u're wrong, thats not chocolate.it's something els. I thought u're also playing cards....

P:I played it bt nt now coz i lose it. do u kow i nvr win in cards so gonna sleep now. amba khana paunu vayo,kusum gave or nt.

N:In cards game, we're the same. i also never win so don't wanna play. Ani amba... maile ta vetaya na ta.

P:Really so sad bt i had pickd it 4 u wid many difficulties.Nxt time.Hey u score 7.5 in ilets,i heard it frm minu sis,is it true.?

N:whats the point if i can't go australia after getting 7.5 on IELTS.It useless...... coz' of that i lose money at australia which is impossible to get back...... Why u asked me...?

P:I got it few mins ago?Khoi ta mero ans...Aus.. jane vanera paisa faseko 6 ra!I nvr thinkd dat u r so intelligent...I really impressed.

N:I don't think that u've to be intelligent to get that marks at all.Just ideas how to solve the problem only.......

P:Intelligent manche lai po problem solve garna sak6,nt like me.Kaash god le malai pane tapai jasto banayeko vaye...

N:god le ma jasto banaya ko vaya..... i just can imagine, till now u won't be able to laugh in pain & sorrow just like me. And problem that u won't face at all.... so don't try to be like me.Its really hard...... u can't imagine how hard life i's living and problem also....

P:I mean only ur types of brain.Hey cn i ask it?Hijo tapailai dherai kura haru magyo,sayad pura hun6 hola.

N:Khusi lagyo, i hope mageko kura sabai pura hos yehi 6 mero kamaana... anyway k magnu vayo ta ni....!

P:Vannu hudaina ne.Bt i dnt trust more in god.Lets hope pura hun6.Tapai ta kasto kamti volne,aja tapai sanga basda ought lagyo.Aja tapai lai monkey dekhnu vayo?
N:yea.... i don't like to talk alot, just to the point only.Thats why i don't have friends and...... sorry that u feel ought coz' of me,

P:Its okay...Meh parsi ktm jane kaam pareko thiyo,bandha lai khatam vayo.Kaam pane sabai adhuro cha.Tapai aba kaha janu hune- aus ki sin...

N:Right now i can't say anything to u, i don't know myself. aus ma money phaseko chha so try to be there.If not than i don't have choice just stay at Nepal and do some business....

P:Aba singapore na jane.I heard u can go to many countries...So why dnt u go to one of them.

N:yea i can go.... but i don't wanna be that country. I prefer to go either aus or Sin only. i'll go to sin as a tourist only coz' my frens don't like me to be there to work or stay overthere.....!

P:Kina ne sathi le testo vaneko?

N:They know my habit well enough. If i went to sin... won't going to sleep full for more than 2 weeks in a month. So they asked me to be there as tourist only.... if i went there to work they won't talk to me at all so i don't wanna lose my frens coz' of this.....

P:If i say to stay n work there than wht u prefer?

N:ummm.... what will u do... if i asked u the same thing

P:Simple...U kow my habit.I m nt interested in frens so....

N:Not interest in frens.... but i've seen u're hanging around with them.....! i don't believe

P:Vetyo vane bolne ho bt they dnt mean anything to me. Jst hi,hello n bye. i kow u dnt prefer it coz u r nt foolish like me.

N:one thing as i used to say... life is not a bed of roses, u've to be through thorns as well. And compromising also another option.... that depends on situation whether to sacrifice or compromise....

P:Wht a dialogue sirjee...Hahaha i was havin fun.Ur life-why to interfier in it.lala gudnite i think i hav to sleep now.

N:ummm... that means i'm also nothing in ur life, just hi and hello.It disappointed me alot......!

P:U r my bst fren ne. bst fren ta heart ma baseko hun6,if i giv up u,my heart ll cry,den it wnt pump de blood n i ll die.To make me alive..!!

N:best fren..... ummm are u sure about it.Coz u've to sacrifice and compromised according to situation to become my fren also... just like my life!

P:I hav rare bst fren-u,minu di n vauju wid whom i can share my feelings.Voli adhi cafe gayo vane wht can i bring 4 u?

N:i don't need anything for me.Just wanna see u happy. But u never answer my q..!
P:Sory hai 4 late coz my fren called me so iwas talking wid him. timro prasna ko ans pauchau tara samay lagcha.

N:its so simple.. just yea or not. And u know that i'm gonna asked u the same question again.... so think about it!

P:Mero khusi ko lagi euta tara ta launa sakena khoi sankha lagyo.Hey jst wait 4 a month.u get ur ans..

N:timi tara ko kura garnu hun6. Tyo ta sapana ma matra ani impression ko lagi ho..... k bhayo ra tara launa nasake pani, timro life ma haso ra khusi ta dina sakula ni...! And some more have to wait for a month, Ummm.... for u anything,

P:Bt teslai laune tarika jannu par6.If i was boi then...Happy to kow it dat u can do atleast it 4 me.

N:Ha ha ha good joke. anyway ur time start already.I'll wait for ur answer... till 5th of may than i'll give u surprise that u won't forget in ur life.

P:Wht is in dat day?Is dat ur b-day?Halka suprise khuldai 6.

N:no way i'm not going to open that surprise right now unless and until i don't get my answer....... till that time it'll be a surprise for u!

P:If my ans goes ngt then i think u wnt hav any suprise for me.

N:Not at all.... still i'll give u that surprise for u.No matter what happens i'll do it just for u only.

P:Hey nvr trust anyone more then ourself.I ll b waiting 4 dat day.I can ans u anytime btw tis month so prepared 4 dat.

N:i don't have nothing to lose and don't hope to get something as well. Being true with u i don't trust myself... but able to keep my words in any situation. i won't run away with my words.....!

P:Which i like.Gudnite ma sut6u la ekdam nidra lageko 6.Tapai jasto parenam hami.

N:ok.... j hos mero hawa le chuna lageko 6 timi lai pani. Have a sweet dream & sleep tightly.

P:Afno banaune vaneko ta afu jasto banaune bichar 6 jasto lagyo.Raati pane na sutera lamo life,i dnt prefer. voli bata ma tapailai nabin vanera bolau6u la iF...

N:Aaphno banau6u vani chaheko chhu herau yo karma ma k lekhiyako chhha. vanna ta karma ko rekha aaphaile lekhnu parcha van6.... ma pani tesai ko lagi mari meteko chhu. Ani maile kina mind garne nabin vanda, aaphno le vanda ta khusi lagchha ni...!

Mother...

Its been already 2 years on 3rd of April, that i've lose my mom back to my country(Nepal)

i don't know whereabout my mother till now. At that time also i've to come back to Nepal and search most possible places she might have been, But i's unable to find her altough i've tried my best.

i's trying my best till now, Ya ! right now i's back to Nepal. And still looking for her. I don't have a Single clue about her. But still have faith and hope with me that one day i'll find her or may be get to know something that i don't wanna hear and see......................... !

Anyway life is like that have to face lots cof ups and downs, thats one of them.......

She gives birth to new life

She is creation of love

Never could buy with million

Never could find once u lost

God can't be everywhere

That’s why....

He created mother,

She looks for my best,

My behaviour, dress and test

She likes me to be the best

God can't be everywhere

That is why..........

He created mother

She is a good teacher

Sacrifice & love is her feature

She helps me and

Gives me total support

God can't be everywhere

That is why..............

He created mother ..........!

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Mother is a person,

who gives birthAnd she is the person

Who gives a chance to look this earth,

Mother is great,

who helps us Pursue through our future gate

She teaches her children

All the good things

She tells children not to take up bad things.

Mother is rich in love,

Her love towards us never fades....

She is the person all our trouble who takes....

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love you

Nabin

02/04/09

P:If u ask for flower i ll give u garden if u ask for tree i ll giv u forest if u ask for ask for water i ll giv u ocean if u ask for my love i ll giv u my lifE.KIna ho ph garer pane na bolne...Ajkal ta tension pareko jasto6!Khoi hijo vetne vanera aja volayeko ta...

N:k garnu mann ko pida dekhayara pani namilne, lukayara pani nalukne.. tension ta kehi pani thiyana just mood off thiyo...

P:Why???Testo mood ma nvr stay again coz i dnt prefer it.By de way u r lukin cool today....

N:yea, a bit only ...s9rry dear

P:Lala nt nxt time. i wanna c u Voli wid cheerful face wid 32 teeth. aywy gudnite.Jst go home n sleep loose....hav a swt dream.

N:u wann se me voli, but i thought to see u right now.. u can see my 32 teeths rights now as well. so.... just wana see u rights now so that i can sleep lose..

N:oh yea... !i'm extremely sory for this afternoon, i know that u get scolded by ur brothers, i apologies for this afternoon incident..

P:Sorry....I wanna sleep so dat i could wakeup early n go to temple after having shower so gudnite...Tis my last mgs,c u soon!!!Its my mistake so..Bye.

N:last message... ! sory to disturb u at midnight ..... i thought something but i's unfortunate & unlucky as well... i don't blame anyone just myself... ha ha ha gud night , have a sweet dream

N:Yaad gardai baseko thiya, aai pugyo missed call le message timro......

N:you're not receiving my phone right now... i's hurt, u know why...! i never thought that things till now. But.... i hope u understand how i feel right now.!

01/04/09

P:Khana khanu vayo?K ho aja ta dinvari haraunu vayo.Ane tapai ta voli phk jane re?

N:kahan pin ta testai ho,mero, yea i's planning go go back to plr than ktm, k garnu sabai nisthuri vaya pachhi kasko k lagchha ra....

P:Aghi kina ph rcv nagarnu vayeko ne.I was afraid dat u r angry wid me n kina ne voli jane plz wait na some more days...

N:k garnu lagyo ki kin waste garnu timro samay mero boring kura le..ani basne mann ta thiuo.... herau k van6 aaune samay le........

P:Khoi malai ta biswas ta vayena.Ma sanga bholnu mann thiyena hola,if so im sory hai.Ane aja ta na bole janu vayo ne?I hav been waiting frm hijo...

N:Ani vannu hos.... phone connection nai totna pugyo. Sorry for it...

P:Tapai vanu na kam ta vayo?

N:k kam vannu, as i told u before .... just waste of my time & money as well....

P:If so then jst leave it n kaha hunu hun6 ta,aja ta minu di ko ghar ma suteko hone?Tapai haru gharma ki...

N:ma ta pratikchha maya ma basi raheko chhu...

P:Kti chito rply dinu vayeko,ek nidra marera ho jasto 6.Do u need ganga vauju no.?

N:Sorry to distrub u all over there. I's just making fool of u only...

P:K fool banayeko ra?Cn u xplain me...

N:its a flash message that can't be explain or repeat again ../....

P:K ho vana chito?Kasto flash mgs hora!

N:flash message pani ka bata vannu ra...! anyway u're not coming to meet me as welll...

P:I didnt get da point wht r u talking abt?

N:ma pratikchha laya ma ho... ki janera pani anjan bannu vayako ho....

P:Hoina,ma kina anjan banne hora.

P:Sak6u ne kina nasaknu.Abt ur gift tyo sadna lageko cha,khoi tapai ta kata ho kata...Ek mauka pane payena, voli ta sure din6u tara tapai ghar jana pauna...

N:La vai halchha ni... ani vetna ta mann vaya hun6, mauka ta dherai nai diyako tara.....

P:Mauka ta malai pane dherai khojeko ho ne tara samay lai sath diyena... meh majbur chu ne...

N:I know, samay ra situation le majbur banai raheko chha...

P:Same problem?

P:K ho tyo vaneko n u r nt going wid us.

N:

P:Kasto thulo palteko manche rahe6.Thikai cha arulai vaneko vaye janthyo ho...Hamro pane ek palta request gar6 tara force gardaina like u...

N:La... i may not be able to go with u, Aru sanga jau na la.

P:Aru kaslai laijane dog,cat...Jhutho aash tapailai payeko hoina,tyo ta hamile voknu pareko 6.

N:K garnu jane mann ta thiyo, k garnu kam le garyo bore....

P:Mann ta ho...Aywy i wnt force u.Lala gudnite its too late tara afno lai ta dokha dine rahe6....

N:Dokha ta dusman lai pani diyako chhaina ahile samma, ani aaphno lai kasari dinu dokha

P:Dusman lai nadiyo vandaima hami lai dinu par6 ra?Aywy chinyo tapaiko dai ra bhai lai....

N:Thanks alot... at least u know both of us but.....

P:But wht..?

N:But u never understand my feeling, just play with it just like a small kid.....

P:Hora vanya..Wht cn do 4 it. aywy gudnite n c u 2morow wid chocolate.

N:I'll come but maile vaneko thau ma aaunu parchha.... pratikchha laya

P:Taha kina ne?

N:overthere no one will distrub us, so that we can talk....

P:I ll try my bst.May b at day time. ma sut6u hai n u too.

N:ok.... gud nite sleep tightly & have sweet dream.