i dont cry
i like to hide
my emotions are burried
within my soul
bottled and shipped
im ill-equipt
take a dip
my razor slipped
too much to carry
its hard to burry
went too deep
its hard to keep
the strive to survive
the life behind the lies
its time too say goodbye
i dont cry
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
True friends are for life
Until the end
They're more than special
They're your bestest friends.
They're the ones you can go to
When you're in despair
The ones that'll help you
Even when you got gum in your hair!
They're the ones who'll laugh
And go laughing with you all through the night
The ones who'll help you
Help you with all their might
To have a good friend
You have to be one
So be nice to one another
So you can be friends forever
And that\'s how to be the best friend you can be.
Until the end
They're more than special
They're your bestest friends.
They're the ones you can go to
When you're in despair
The ones that'll help you
Even when you got gum in your hair!
They're the ones who'll laugh
And go laughing with you all through the night
The ones who'll help you
Help you with all their might
To have a good friend
You have to be one
So be nice to one another
So you can be friends forever
And that\'s how to be the best friend you can be.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Friendship comes and Friendship Goes
Friendships come and Friendships go Like wave upon the sand
Like day and night
Like birds in flight
Like snowflakes when they land
But you and I are something else
Our friendship's here to stay
Like weeds and rocks and dirty socks
It never goes away!
Like day and night
Like birds in flight
Like snowflakes when they land
But you and I are something else
Our friendship's here to stay
Like weeds and rocks and dirty socks
It never goes away!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Loss N' Love
Chasing afetr you is tiring
Crying over you is depressing
So i'm going to stop trying
Maybe even start dying
But oh well
Love n' Loss
I guess
I'll go on with life trying to be strong and act happy
While you'll go on letting other people control your life
I just hope I don't commit suicide
Like all the other girls who've been played
By those boys
Who took their hearts and crushed em'
And then they don't give a shit afterwards
Haha life sucks for girls i know
I just wish i could forget you as easily
As you've forgotten me
But as much as I know
That that's never going to happen
A girl can hope can't she?
Crying over you is depressing
So i'm going to stop trying
Maybe even start dying
But oh well
Love n' Loss
I guess
I'll go on with life trying to be strong and act happy
While you'll go on letting other people control your life
I just hope I don't commit suicide
Like all the other girls who've been played
By those boys
Who took their hearts and crushed em'
And then they don't give a shit afterwards
Haha life sucks for girls i know
I just wish i could forget you as easily
As you've forgotten me
But as much as I know
That that's never going to happen
A girl can hope can't she?
Monday, July 27, 2009
A Bset Fren................
A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.
A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
My Regret
What if I was the only one?
The only one to save you.
Inside I know you'll never thank me
No one will, you never will,
If one thing really means one.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
When will you notice me
And overcome the monster you made me?
Why am I the only shadow?
I am not the only ghost, That I surely know.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
Why can't you hear me screaming?
I'm slowly dying, disappearing.
You never taught me how not to be angry
That is why my heart is empty.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
The only one to save you.
Inside I know you'll never thank me
No one will, you never will,
If one thing really means one.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
When will you notice me
And overcome the monster you made me?
Why am I the only shadow?
I am not the only ghost, That I surely know.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
Why can't you hear me screaming?
I'm slowly dying, disappearing.
You never taught me how not to be angry
That is why my heart is empty.
That's why you'll always be my regret.
My own regret, my personal regret.
The one regret I'll ever have.
Winter's Road
I cannot speak for all who stem
'Long roads less traveled as their way,
Nor question choices made by them
In days long past or nights long dim
by words they spoke and did not say.
Each road is long, though short it seems,
And credence gives each road a name
Of fantasies sun-drenched in beams
Or choices turned to darkened dreams,
To where each road wends just the same.
From North to South, then back again,
I followed birds like all the rest
Escaping nature's snowy den
On roads I've seen and places been,
Forsaking roads that traveled West.
This journey grows now to its end,
As road reflections lined in chrome
Give way to roads with greater bend
And empty signs that still pretend
They point the way to home sweet home.
But all roads lead to where we go
And where we go is where we've been,
So home is just a word we know,
That space in time most apropos
For where we want to be again.
For even home, it seems to me,
Is still a choice we all must face
From day to day and endlessly,
To choose if home is going to be
Another road - or just a place.
'Long roads less traveled as their way,
Nor question choices made by them
In days long past or nights long dim
by words they spoke and did not say.
Each road is long, though short it seems,
And credence gives each road a name
Of fantasies sun-drenched in beams
Or choices turned to darkened dreams,
To where each road wends just the same.
From North to South, then back again,
I followed birds like all the rest
Escaping nature's snowy den
On roads I've seen and places been,
Forsaking roads that traveled West.
This journey grows now to its end,
As road reflections lined in chrome
Give way to roads with greater bend
And empty signs that still pretend
They point the way to home sweet home.
But all roads lead to where we go
And where we go is where we've been,
So home is just a word we know,
That space in time most apropos
For where we want to be again.
For even home, it seems to me,
Is still a choice we all must face
From day to day and endlessly,
To choose if home is going to be
Another road - or just a place.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Small Pain In My Chest
The soldier boy was sitting calmly underneath that tree.
As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me.
The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night
And scores of figures on the ground lay still by morning's light.
"I wonder if you'd help me, sir", he smiled as best he could.
"A sip of water on this morn would surely do me good.
We fought all day and fought all night with scarcely any rest -
A sip of water for I have a small pain in my chest."
As I looked at him, I could see the large stain on his shirt
All reddish-brown from his warm blood mixed in with Asian dirt.
"Not much", said he. "I count myself more lucky than the rest.
They're all gone while I just have a small pain in my chest."
"Must be fatigue", he weakly smiled. "I must be getting old.
I see the sun is shining bright and yet I'm feeling cold.
We climbed the hill, two hundred strong, but as we cleared the crest,
The night exploded and I felt this small pain in my chest."
"I looked around to get some aid - the only things I found
Were big, deep craters in the earth - bodies on the ground.
I kept on firing at them, sir. I tried to do my best,
But finally sat down with this small pain in my chest."
"I'm grateful, sir", he whispered, as I handed my canteen
And smiled a smile that was, I think, the brightest that I've seen.
"Seems silly that a man my size so full of vim and zest,
Could find himself defeated by a small pain in his chest."
"What would my wife be thinking of her man so strong and grown,
If she could see me sitting here, too weak to stand alone?
Could my mother have imagined, as she held me to her breast,
That I'd be sitting HERE one day with this pain in my chest?"
"Can it be getting dark so soon?" He winced up at the sun.
"It's growing dim and I thought that the day had just begun.
I think, before I travel on, I'll get a little rest ..........
And, quietly, the boy died from that small pain in his chest.
I don't recall what happened then. I think I must have cried;
I put my arms around him and I pulled him to my side
And, as I held him to me, I could feel our wounds were pressed
The large one in my heart against the small one in his chest.
As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me.
The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night
And scores of figures on the ground lay still by morning's light.
"I wonder if you'd help me, sir", he smiled as best he could.
"A sip of water on this morn would surely do me good.
We fought all day and fought all night with scarcely any rest -
A sip of water for I have a small pain in my chest."
As I looked at him, I could see the large stain on his shirt
All reddish-brown from his warm blood mixed in with Asian dirt.
"Not much", said he. "I count myself more lucky than the rest.
They're all gone while I just have a small pain in my chest."
"Must be fatigue", he weakly smiled. "I must be getting old.
I see the sun is shining bright and yet I'm feeling cold.
We climbed the hill, two hundred strong, but as we cleared the crest,
The night exploded and I felt this small pain in my chest."
"I looked around to get some aid - the only things I found
Were big, deep craters in the earth - bodies on the ground.
I kept on firing at them, sir. I tried to do my best,
But finally sat down with this small pain in my chest."
"I'm grateful, sir", he whispered, as I handed my canteen
And smiled a smile that was, I think, the brightest that I've seen.
"Seems silly that a man my size so full of vim and zest,
Could find himself defeated by a small pain in his chest."
"What would my wife be thinking of her man so strong and grown,
If she could see me sitting here, too weak to stand alone?
Could my mother have imagined, as she held me to her breast,
That I'd be sitting HERE one day with this pain in my chest?"
"Can it be getting dark so soon?" He winced up at the sun.
"It's growing dim and I thought that the day had just begun.
I think, before I travel on, I'll get a little rest ..........
And, quietly, the boy died from that small pain in his chest.
I don't recall what happened then. I think I must have cried;
I put my arms around him and I pulled him to my side
And, as I held him to me, I could feel our wounds were pressed
The large one in my heart against the small one in his chest.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Regret Today
How many times do we say something that we immediately realized was not the right thing to say?
How many times do we look back on an event and think, if only I had....
How many times do we do something that we wish hadn't done?
You can't change what has been said.
You can't change a past event.
You can't change what has been done.
Do you call it regret, sorrow, repentance?
Do you think about what might have been?
Do you relive an event the way it should have been?
Forget about regret, and focus.
Focus on today, not on the past.
Focus on what you can do, not what you didn't do.
The only thing to regret is living in the past
The only thing to feel sorrow for is not living each day to the fullest.
The only thing to do to repent is to sincerely say, I'm sorry.
Don't live your life regretting yesterday.
Live your life so tomorrow you won't regret today.
How many times do we look back on an event and think, if only I had....
How many times do we do something that we wish hadn't done?
You can't change what has been said.
You can't change a past event.
You can't change what has been done.
Do you call it regret, sorrow, repentance?
Do you think about what might have been?
Do you relive an event the way it should have been?
Forget about regret, and focus.
Focus on today, not on the past.
Focus on what you can do, not what you didn't do.
The only thing to regret is living in the past
The only thing to feel sorrow for is not living each day to the fullest.
The only thing to do to repent is to sincerely say, I'm sorry.
Don't live your life regretting yesterday.
Live your life so tomorrow you won't regret today.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Girls need to realize
We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance.
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Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
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We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance.
Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this,
so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
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Love you
Nabin
Happy B- Day my Sis
Date 20/07/2009
"I am sorry I missed your birthday, you have had so many I have lost track With love this wish is sent your way , for a very special kind of day May this birthday be just the beginning of a year filled with happy memories, wonderful moments and shinning dreams. It’s always a treat to wish Happy Birthday to someone so Sweet. I hope that your day is blessed with happiness and joy Sunshine and friendship Happy Birthday" Yea! Its too late to wish, but being late wish u happy return of the day.....
I hardly missed to wish anyone’s birthday but now don't know when is my birthday as well. Don't u think its ridiculous & selfish. Ha ha ha ha I forget my fren or god sis's birthday that one also came once a year, how stupid i's.......! U jerk how can u forget that special day....! Anyway I’m sorry for ur birthday that was not able to be there or cannot send simple message as well....! I hope u've great time on ur birthday day with your friends & family.
Love you
Nabin
"I am sorry I missed your birthday, you have had so many I have lost track With love this wish is sent your way , for a very special kind of day May this birthday be just the beginning of a year filled with happy memories, wonderful moments and shinning dreams. It’s always a treat to wish Happy Birthday to someone so Sweet. I hope that your day is blessed with happiness and joy Sunshine and friendship Happy Birthday" Yea! Its too late to wish, but being late wish u happy return of the day.....
I hardly missed to wish anyone’s birthday but now don't know when is my birthday as well. Don't u think its ridiculous & selfish. Ha ha ha ha I forget my fren or god sis's birthday that one also came once a year, how stupid i's.......! U jerk how can u forget that special day....! Anyway I’m sorry for ur birthday that was not able to be there or cannot send simple message as well....! I hope u've great time on ur birthday day with your friends & family.
Love you
Nabin
Thursday, July 16, 2009
A cute Poem For A cute Girl
You changed my world with a blink of an eye
That is something that I can not deny
You put my soul from worst to best
That is why I treasure you my dearest Marites
You just don't know what you have done for me
You even pushed me to the best that I can be
You really are an angel sent from above
To take care of me and shower with love
When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear
And your touch have chased away all of my fear
You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile
It is even better everytime you smile
It so magical those things you've made
To bring back my faith that almost fade
Now my life is a dream come true
It all began when I was loved by you
Now I have found what I am looking for
It's you and your love and nothing more
Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment
In my life something I've never felt
I wish I could talk 'til the end of day
But now I'm running out of things to say
So I'll end by the line you already know
"I LOVE YOU" more than what I could show
Love you
Nabin
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
15/07/09
Date 15/07/2009
Writing over my blog..... only one meaning to expressed my feeling on daily life that have been through me. Most of my posting were mainly focused on frustration, saddest moment, memorable time & ofcourse poetry about love, friendship, heartbreak & inspiration...... Today will be nothing special just a feeling of my heart.
As usual i don't have any special features to write..... oh yea! as u know that i used to do casual or social drink only that once left for someone. Now i've start drinking again... not because i didn't get what i wanna have....? just to kill my loneliness.
So i went into my friends restaurant just to have chit chat with him. Even though we lived in same area but hardly met.... u may think its ridiculous, but true. I don't like to go over his place all the time. Once a month we meet up and chat all shorts of things. So i went to his restaurant and meet him. After that we start to chat all the stuffs.... & ordered a bottel of whisky. I thought it'll be ok for us so i didn't say anything about it. But to my surprise that whole fucking bottel of whisky was for me, just alone...... Oh my fucking ass how can i finished that thing alone, so asked him to get smaller one. But he asked me to finished whole bottel... ok i don't mind, one thing not gonna pay for it if i finished it....!
You know what.... ! i drank the whole bottel of whisky alone without moving around & some more the restaurant also gonna closed soon for the day business. After drank the whole bottel.... can't believe myself, walk just like normal. At that night outside got raining, so just wanna play with rain & get wet. I love to get wet in rain all the time but this time don't have luck. i'm going to ride his private car. I've tried to insist that will walk all the way to my home but never listen to me......... so he drove to my house & left, its already 1AM, just went into my room & sleep without having dinner.....! !
Writing over my blog..... only one meaning to expressed my feeling on daily life that have been through me. Most of my posting were mainly focused on frustration, saddest moment, memorable time & ofcourse poetry about love, friendship, heartbreak & inspiration...... Today will be nothing special just a feeling of my heart.
As usual i don't have any special features to write..... oh yea! as u know that i used to do casual or social drink only that once left for someone. Now i've start drinking again... not because i didn't get what i wanna have....? just to kill my loneliness.
So i went into my friends restaurant just to have chit chat with him. Even though we lived in same area but hardly met.... u may think its ridiculous, but true. I don't like to go over his place all the time. Once a month we meet up and chat all shorts of things. So i went to his restaurant and meet him. After that we start to chat all the stuffs.... & ordered a bottel of whisky. I thought it'll be ok for us so i didn't say anything about it. But to my surprise that whole fucking bottel of whisky was for me, just alone...... Oh my fucking ass how can i finished that thing alone, so asked him to get smaller one. But he asked me to finished whole bottel... ok i don't mind, one thing not gonna pay for it if i finished it....!
You know what.... ! i drank the whole bottel of whisky alone without moving around & some more the restaurant also gonna closed soon for the day business. After drank the whole bottel.... can't believe myself, walk just like normal. At that night outside got raining, so just wanna play with rain & get wet. I love to get wet in rain all the time but this time don't have luck. i'm going to ride his private car. I've tried to insist that will walk all the way to my home but never listen to me......... so he drove to my house & left, its already 1AM, just went into my room & sleep without having dinner.....! !
Monday, July 13, 2009
13/07/2009
Date 13/07/2009
Times..... its been already a year & going to be a week, know what i returned back from,s'pore & returned back from Chitwan respectively. Although i feel like return behind the bars inside my own house. Unusual, uneasy... where there's no one whom can call my family or friends thats how i feel. Don't know why my family became like this where no one will care for others, just wanna be their self..... just selfish ego.
As i used to mentioned every time that wanna be somewhere where can relax... have my own life. No one will to distrub personal feeling. Why should i care about them when they don't care me right now......... when i need some kind of help ? why.........? No one try to help relatives, family nor friends..... its a same on me that don't have anyone.........
Hey ! but i got someone with whom i barely talk & meet them. Now they try to helped me in every possible way, i feel glad........! Got determination to do something & show those f**kin' stupid people that i can do it even thought u don't help me. Just wanna show them that i got courage & determination to do things without ur help, got someone who cares for me. yea...... ! i got someone ...... i got....!!!
Being true... got few friends whom i can share my feeling & thought, some of them just neglect it... some ware serious about it & try to consol me in every possible way so that won't take wrong path to get success. They're my true friends as well for me whom can called as family. Right now being a younger, i don't have any ideas how my life gonna be......? thats stupid to think right.....!
Whenever i looked at other family whose younger bro. having fun, taking all the happiness that comes along, u know how i feel....? just wanna sit in a corner & count the tear drops along my sad & unhappiness....... with drinks !!
Love you
Nabin
Times..... its been already a year & going to be a week, know what i returned back from,s'pore & returned back from Chitwan respectively. Although i feel like return behind the bars inside my own house. Unusual, uneasy... where there's no one whom can call my family or friends thats how i feel. Don't know why my family became like this where no one will care for others, just wanna be their self..... just selfish ego.
As i used to mentioned every time that wanna be somewhere where can relax... have my own life. No one will to distrub personal feeling. Why should i care about them when they don't care me right now......... when i need some kind of help ? why.........? No one try to help relatives, family nor friends..... its a same on me that don't have anyone.........
Hey ! but i got someone with whom i barely talk & meet them. Now they try to helped me in every possible way, i feel glad........! Got determination to do something & show those f**kin' stupid people that i can do it even thought u don't help me. Just wanna show them that i got courage & determination to do things without ur help, got someone who cares for me. yea...... ! i got someone ...... i got....!!!
Being true... got few friends whom i can share my feeling & thought, some of them just neglect it... some ware serious about it & try to consol me in every possible way so that won't take wrong path to get success. They're my true friends as well for me whom can called as family. Right now being a younger, i don't have any ideas how my life gonna be......? thats stupid to think right.....!
Whenever i looked at other family whose younger bro. having fun, taking all the happiness that comes along, u know how i feel....? just wanna sit in a corner & count the tear drops along my sad & unhappiness....... with drinks !!
Love you
Nabin
Monday, July 6, 2009
06/07/2009
Date 20090706
Finally i'm on the way to home...... don't have any mood to be there but have no choice at all, After being out for almost 10 days, have some enjoyable as well as bad moment thats really hard to forget.
Theres some reason, have to return home coz' i have to submit my document for abroad process. Before that if got time, i've to meet my new fren with whom used to talk through phone but never got any chance meet. So today i hope to meet her...... just need to dropped out and called her.... ha ha ha ha
I've some excitement inside my feeling, like how she looks a like,....? what she'll think about me....? Don't u think there'll be some kind of fun & excitement..... i's waiting for that moment to shere with u all.
Oh... i missed out something to tell u about my heart break...... still missed those moment & time that i've spend with her almost 2 months. I never realize that have to face it after being..... whenever i recalled those moments my heart aches & wanna lose with those memories... uffff only memories. I don't know what happened.... don't have any ideas. But she left me so easily just like a pupet show. So as i used to tell every one that 'im the man with my words.' i've told myself that won't gonna make any other relationship at all means not with her also..... don't wanna merry as well until she won't marry...... so i'll keep my words. U can't imagine how i've spend my time in the same place looking at her..... just hearts felt so wanna leave as soon as possible but situation and time always wanna stop.... what i'll do...? i don't have any ideas as welll..... lets hope this time i can go through that situation & time. Plz give me the strength & courage to defend myself & put my words as well....... uffff this pain....!
Now don't have any intention to return back to chitwan any more. Everytime every visit i remember the same thing if i came back to chitwan....... same memories will came into my mind just like sea waves .....! That means am i running away with the facts. But one thing is sure no matter how far i tried to run...... the memories won't leave me till my last breath..... yea till last breath! last breath!!
Love you All
Nabin
Finally i'm on the way to home...... don't have any mood to be there but have no choice at all, After being out for almost 10 days, have some enjoyable as well as bad moment thats really hard to forget.
Theres some reason, have to return home coz' i have to submit my document for abroad process. Before that if got time, i've to meet my new fren with whom used to talk through phone but never got any chance meet. So today i hope to meet her...... just need to dropped out and called her.... ha ha ha ha
I've some excitement inside my feeling, like how she looks a like,....? what she'll think about me....? Don't u think there'll be some kind of fun & excitement..... i's waiting for that moment to shere with u all.
Oh... i missed out something to tell u about my heart break...... still missed those moment & time that i've spend with her almost 2 months. I never realize that have to face it after being..... whenever i recalled those moments my heart aches & wanna lose with those memories... uffff only memories. I don't know what happened.... don't have any ideas. But she left me so easily just like a pupet show. So as i used to tell every one that 'im the man with my words.' i've told myself that won't gonna make any other relationship at all means not with her also..... don't wanna merry as well until she won't marry...... so i'll keep my words. U can't imagine how i've spend my time in the same place looking at her..... just hearts felt so wanna leave as soon as possible but situation and time always wanna stop.... what i'll do...? i don't have any ideas as welll..... lets hope this time i can go through that situation & time. Plz give me the strength & courage to defend myself & put my words as well....... uffff this pain....!
Now don't have any intention to return back to chitwan any more. Everytime every visit i remember the same thing if i came back to chitwan....... same memories will came into my mind just like sea waves .....! That means am i running away with the facts. But one thing is sure no matter how far i tried to run...... the memories won't leave me till my last breath..... yea till last breath! last breath!!
Love you All
Nabin
Friday, July 3, 2009
03/07/2009
Date 2009/07/03
Its been almost week that i've not been back to house. Don't know why...? i don't wanna go back anymore. i just wanna spend my time staying outside..... just alone. Life is just like a circle... yea, wherever i'll go, reached at the same place.........
Now i've face the same problem as mentioned above....... have to go back even thought don't have any mood. I's tried my best to get somewhere.... without being illegal for forever. Don't wanna return back without any reason.
Lets see whether luck will favour me or not..... i hope ! Just a hope only...... I would like to apologies to my frens that...... recently i've lied u for nothing. Just wanna make fun of me..... hope to see u all happy! I's really sorry my frens la... Don't have any intention behind, just wanna live my life with my loneliness....
Love you all
Nabin
Its been almost week that i've not been back to house. Don't know why...? i don't wanna go back anymore. i just wanna spend my time staying outside..... just alone. Life is just like a circle... yea, wherever i'll go, reached at the same place.........
Now i've face the same problem as mentioned above....... have to go back even thought don't have any mood. I's tried my best to get somewhere.... without being illegal for forever. Don't wanna return back without any reason.
Lets see whether luck will favour me or not..... i hope ! Just a hope only...... I would like to apologies to my frens that...... recently i've lied u for nothing. Just wanna make fun of me..... hope to see u all happy! I's really sorry my frens la... Don't have any intention behind, just wanna live my life with my loneliness....
Love you all
Nabin
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Broken Hearted
He cried in the corner, of his little dark room
He began falling into the blackness of his doom
He held the broken glass to his arm
just because he felt he had to self-harm
the blood dripped down on to his floor
because he didn't want to be alive anymore
he threw the glass away, and fell into black
as he awoke, it all came rushing back
he bled, and felt so lost once more
and knew there was only one door
he had to die, for other people to live
And he never wanted to revive
his death would bring a better life
so he pulled out a small knife
made his fingers bleed
then he wrote in his blood "I want to be freed!
he sat in the dark, reeling in pain
and he knew this was the wrong lane
she had broke his heart and battered his soul
the evil b***h had completed her goal
he was dying inside and out
and all he felt was doubt
he was falling apart
with his broken and shattered heart
He began falling into the blackness of his doom
He held the broken glass to his arm
just because he felt he had to self-harm
the blood dripped down on to his floor
because he didn't want to be alive anymore
he threw the glass away, and fell into black
as he awoke, it all came rushing back
he bled, and felt so lost once more
and knew there was only one door
he had to die, for other people to live
And he never wanted to revive
his death would bring a better life
so he pulled out a small knife
made his fingers bleed
then he wrote in his blood "I want to be freed!
he sat in the dark, reeling in pain
and he knew this was the wrong lane
she had broke his heart and battered his soul
the evil b***h had completed her goal
he was dying inside and out
and all he felt was doubt
he was falling apart
with his broken and shattered heart
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