06/07/2009

Date 20090706

Finally i'm on the way to home...... don't have any mood to be there but have no choice at all, After being out for almost 10 days, have some enjoyable as well as bad moment thats really hard to forget.

Theres some reason, have to return home coz' i have to submit my document for abroad process. Before that if got time, i've to meet my new fren with whom used to talk through phone but never got any chance meet. So today i hope to meet her...... just need to dropped out and called her.... ha ha ha ha

I've some excitement inside my feeling, like how she looks a like,....? what she'll think about me....? Don't u think there'll be some kind of fun & excitement..... i's waiting for that moment to shere with u all.

Oh... i missed out something to tell u about my heart break...... still missed those moment & time that i've spend with her almost 2 months. I never realize that have to face it after being..... whenever i recalled those moments my heart aches & wanna lose with those memories... uffff only memories. I don't know what happened.... don't have any ideas. But she left me so easily just like a pupet show. So as i used to tell every one that 'im the man with my words.' i've told myself that won't gonna make any other relationship at all means not with her also..... don't wanna merry as well until she won't marry...... so i'll keep my words. U can't imagine how i've spend my time in the same place looking at her..... just hearts felt so wanna leave as soon as possible but situation and time always wanna stop.... what i'll do...? i don't have any ideas as welll..... lets hope this time i can go through that situation & time. Plz give me the strength & courage to defend myself & put my words as well....... uffff this pain....!

Now don't have any intention to return back to chitwan any more. Everytime every visit i remember the same thing if i came back to chitwan....... same memories will came into my mind just like sea waves .....! That means am i running away with the facts. But one thing is sure no matter how far i tried to run...... the memories won't leave me till my last breath..... yea till last breath! last breath!!

Love you All
Nabin