13/07/2009

Date 13/07/2009

Times..... its been already a year & going to be a week, know what i returned back from,s'pore & returned back from Chitwan respectively. Although i feel like return behind the bars inside my own house. Unusual, uneasy... where there's no one whom can call my family or friends thats how i feel. Don't know why my family became like this where no one will care for others, just wanna be their self..... just selfish ego.

As i used to mentioned every time that wanna be somewhere where can relax... have my own life. No one will to distrub personal feeling. Why should i care about them when they don't care me right now......... when i need some kind of help ? why.........? No one try to help relatives, family nor friends..... its a same on me that don't have anyone.........

Hey ! but i got someone with whom i barely talk & meet them. Now they try to helped me in every possible way, i feel glad........! Got determination to do something & show those f**kin' stupid people that i can do it even thought u don't help me. Just wanna show them that i got courage & determination to do things without ur help, got someone who cares for me. yea...... ! i got someone ...... i got....!!!

Being true... got few friends whom i can share my feeling & thought, some of them just neglect it... some ware serious about it & try to consol me in every possible way so that won't take wrong path to get success. They're my true friends as well for me whom can called as family. Right now being a younger, i don't have any ideas how my life gonna be......? thats stupid to think right.....!

Whenever i looked at other family whose younger bro. having fun, taking all the happiness that comes along, u know how i feel....? just wanna sit in a corner & count the tear drops along my sad & unhappiness....... with drinks !!

Love you
Nabin